I finally reached the end of my rope in my relationship. I told my boyfriend everything that bothered me. How he bothered me. How i felt absolutely alone in this relationship. To which he replied that he feels okay. We arw in a long distance relationship for about 6 months now.Tbh now im considering breaking up too. I usually never break up because i believe in trying and i hate change. Im absolutely frustrated.

You’re fed up and I get that. Honestly if he doesn’t want to help you feel better about the relationship, like maybe make some changes or something to help the both of you out…leave him. 

Long Distance Relationship

Where is the way? I need solution

3am Thoughts

Khaa he baat chit wale ?

It's been two weeks since I spoke a word with my bestfriend. We stay in the same room, near by bed. Yet, she doesn't make any effort to talk with me, even though I did. 🥺

Lonely

I am such a fucking loser 

Depression

Hardest day at work. They all hate me. We all are new here but still. I don't even know why.
Ig it was obviously meant to be. I already had s**cidal thoughts still I started working. Thought something new can change me. But no it's getting tougher day by day. 
It's like they indirectly say fuk off. D**e or whatever we don't care. Idk why even I am doing this job. Everything is indicating me to di**.. 
Whole universe is showing me the destination and every lil damn thing.
Every moment I am dy*ing.

Frustration

Who has watched series "end of this f*** world" series 🎁🎁🥳🎁

In all my 17 years, I have just recently found this site, and I need to get all of my feelings out somewhere, as I'm sure you all are thinking as well or you probably wouldn't be here. I do have depression, but I don't have the type of background that this would be expected of. I've never endured traumatic scenarios, I haven't lost close loved ones, and I have a good support system. There is no reason for me to be like this, but that doesn't stop me from the feeling of persistent numbness that occurs at random times. I can be doing something as simple as making a meal or walking down a hallway in school and it will hit me like a ton of bricks. It usually lasts a while as well - the feeling of nothing. It's hard to understand what that is like unless you experience it yourself, so I thought this would be a good platform to discuss it. I've been unhappy with who I am. There is an ideal version of me out there that I just keep trying to strive for and it's seemingly more distant the more I try to get there. I have wanted to die. I think to myself "what is the point of living if this is what it feels like?". I've gone as far as attempting it. I have wanted so badly to just give it all up.
However, there is a feeling that keeps showing up right when I need it to. It is indescribable, there is no word for it that seems to fit, but I will try my best to explain. It's like when you're in a car, by yourself or with your favorite people, in the middle of the night driving through a city that is busy and chaotic during the day, but tranquil and abandoned at night. You are listening to music that actually makes you feel something, and you are able to forget about all that worries you and you can live simply in that moment. It seems to provoke a feeling of longing for all that was and all that has yet to be, but in a good way. You stop caring about all that has wronged you in the past, and you live for all the good that has been right infront of you the entire time. 
And if for nothing else, staying alive for this feeling alone is worth it, I can promise you that. 
If any of you even understand what I am talking about please respond and tell me about what provokes this feeling within you!
 

Mental Health

Today my friend told me a great news 
He is going to US for higher studies I'm so happy for him from my heart and then there's a thought 

My another friend just got promoted to a great position and I'm really happy for him too.
My another friend got married and now she's pregnant I'm obviously happy for her.
My another girl got her life together with a life partner and her job too i can't say how great it is to see her finally happy and getting everything that she deserves.
My another two guy friends both got the jobs after a very long job search and that's fantastic.


It's just ..when I wanna say about myself..there's nothing new happening when is my turn. I'm trying to get a new job with a better pay. Right now I have a job I'm grateful for it just my current financial situation needs more than what I got when i started this job it's mostly same even after 2 years no increments. I'm confused with lot of options and if i think I'm eliminating all of them with many reasons. I should be motivated by my friends who worked so hard for everything they got. This post is just to clear my mind and I wanna know what I was feeling. It's okay it's not jealous in definitely happy for them it's just i was also thinking about me after talking to them when I'm alone.



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