I felt love in our first conversation. I felt hate in our last conversation. That was when I knew there was no bond between us. 

Relationships

Heyy anyone up for chat?

Friends

Hey guys. I need advice. i’ve been dating this guy. He was the sweetest person and the deepest connection i’ve ever had with anyone. The day i asked him to me my partner, his mom banned him from talking to me.. we agreed that we wouldn’t break up and talk again in 2 weeks when he got his phone back. It has since been 7 months. Recently he told me that during the 2 weeks he kissed someone. Throughout our relationship he has flirted with his friends (laying in laps, wearing hoodies, etc) he even hung out a few times with the person he kissed and their partner. He definitely has changed a lot in the last 2 months.. but the trust issues made me leave him today. I have BPD (borderline personality disorder) and breakups are already hard for me.. but this was the deepest and most intimate i’ve ever been with a person.. i guess what i’m asking is should i end things for good? and how do i move on if i do?

Breakup

after knowing Sushant death which haunts many people even me too then it starts blaming about nepotism that Bollywood nepotism is killing the talent maybe somewhere is true. So nepotism isn't in Bollywood it began firstly from us. Thinks about Dalits people or poor people they also face so many challenges in their life. we/I were/was taught to stay away from these and even people don't touch them or not allowed them to give opportunities to study or even basic rights. ik this isn't connecting at all but all I want to tell u nepotism is everywhere. It's like getting more importance then other peoples, the best examples I could say is - bhai mere papa ki jaan pahchan hai woh kra dege or got entry to party because uk the owner or got admission in college through donation etc there an infinite example of that. All I want to say that getting to know the problem, ok but for killing, we need to go to the base of the problem then fucking kill it from its roots so it will never able to grow again ever.
Together we can and we will 

Motivation

I confessed my feelings for a guy that I like him ... That his absence makes me sad and his presence flutters my heart ... He saud that we can be friends but he don't want to be in a relationship ...now I am confused ..like i asked . .that you dont feel anything for me like not even a bit and he was like  smiling , blushing and saying a no. . then i asked can it happen in future ....he replied that it can happen too we can't predict ... I don't know ...should i start talking to him as a friend.... Like it will be awkward ...should I give him some time ..will he get attached to me i dont understand ...

Confusion

GOING THROUGH GUILT AND SHAME. 

I did something terrible last year. I can’t get over the shame and guilt from it. I lied to my friends and old college mates and borrowed money from them. (citing medical emergencies and other things). Instead I used it in gambling. I had a gambling addiction. I returned the money to them within a month. But they do know that I lied to them. At least most of them know I think.

Even though, I returned the money to them, every single day I can’t stop thinking of the fact that what they might think about me. I borrowed like an average of Rs. 400 (Ranging from Rs100 to Rs700) from 13 people. I know what I did was wrong. I don’t have that gambling addiction anymore. tbh the most cringy thing about this incident is I approached people who rarely know me from my old college. The whole thing is still embarrassing to me. 

This year is meant to be crucial to my career. Because of this incident I lost a year. I cannot lose another year. I want to concentrate and focus but i cannot. I am keeping on wandering on instagram and other stuff which aren’t really important to me.

I know what I did was wrong. And I feel I am going to face the consequences. Even though some of the time I feel the opposite. 

If they came to know why I borrowed money from them will they get mad at me? (Note: Some of them already know that I lied)

Anxiety

how to do loose my belly and thigh fat any tips ?

Exercise

At night, we used to look to the stars to find questions.
Now we look to screens to find answers.

3am Thoughts

Life is straight
Love is arrugument fight


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