I feel totally worthless.
I finally opened up to my partner this week and told them exactly how I was feeling - this was a big deal for me and I found it very difficult. Something i’ve avoided doing for all of my life.
I feel like I’ve completely wasted my time as they didn’t listen at all and now i’m desperately searching the internet for somebody to make more of a connection to than my parter of five years.
Opening up to someone is clear sign of intimacy and if that wasn’t respected properly then i think the problem is much deeper. Did you feel good while opening up to your partner? If yes, then give it sometime and ask it to their face as why did they not value it. If you didn’t feel good while opening to your partner then it’s okay. You’ll know when not to do it and when to do it next time.
I hope you find all the happiness in the world
Opening up to the person you think would understand you the most and trust takes a lot of courage. If they didn’t listen maybe they still need time to process what you shared with them.
I do hope you feel better soon and reach a conclusion that would make you happy.
I am so sorry to hear that you felt that way after opening up to your partner. I guess give him some time and then go and tell him, what you felt, get to know his side of the story and then decide. I hope this helps.