I feel totally shit.
I had nothing in my life. And then I met this amazing person. We fell in love and we decided to get married to each other. And then I decided to move to a different city because I had to chase my dreams and have a better and amazing future together.
But things got little bad at starting when we started long distance.
And then after one month of moving, that person broke up with me. But the next day that person would say I love you and that he/she wanted us to get married soon. And the next day again that person would treat me as I’m nothing in his/her life.
It’s been months now and it’s been months I’ve seen him/her. It’s been months since that person asked me how i was, how i feel. And I was so upset on how things were going. I was unable to do anything. I was unable to work. I started hurting myself. I started having this thought of ending my life but not having the courage to do so.
I was told many times in between that I am being loved. But where is this love?
Does love always have to be materialistic?
Does love always has to be in terms of your failures?
I love that person with all my heart. I just don’t know how to deal with this whole thing going on in my life.
I have this career thing going on with me and I am in so much need to understanding and support. But instead what I’m getting is all hate, loneliness, lost and this thought of just snapping my life out.
😞😞same here
❤️😔
Don’t worry about it. ✌️
Oops, I should have posted it anonymously.
Yes I’m in touch. But I don’t want them to know. And I always had very small circle of friends with whom I’m not in contact.
I guess.
They try to reach out to me sometime. But It’s mostly me who doesn’t reply. I’ve blacked-out from everything for a while now.
Yes maybe. I hope everything turns out okay. I know it will never be good. But it’s okay I guess.
It’s just sometimes I feel this terrible pain.
