I feel that i am not friends with my own friends....dont know if that even makes sense but that's how it is..

I  know that feeling. Been there, felt that

Friends

Friends who understand your mood swings and let you act sh#t >>>>

Climate Change

For everyone who has been hurt by fake friends: f*** fake friends we don't need them. The only thing they are good for, is leaving. 
Practice self love guys. Don't let anyone eat your mental peace. 

Self Love

A while ago, I got to know that I used to put myself in one rebel position for people to like me, but now I have some friends with me who are friends with me for the person I am, but still, they never have time. But somehow, I always have time for them when I am eating my food. I’ll still talk to them when I’m working. I still talk to them, but when I need them, they are having the food or working.
Why do I take out time like that? Why? Why should I always put my work aside for them and, like in the note, set it aside for me?
I want to talk to someone. I really just want to talk or be with someone…

Confusion

My friends are becoming very judgemental and weird now a days. It hurts so much!

Relationships

there are times when my best friends say something or do something that hurts me.
i assume their best intentions out of it but there seems to be no end to it.
they're really good, take care of me and i have the best college days with them.
when i sit alone and think, something they said or did pops up and i feel this ache in my chest.
i understand friends are unfiltered and everything but a few things just seem untoward and feels like they did it on purpose with a plan like a vendetta.
do friends who are 100% genuine and nice exist? 

3am Thoughts

not to live vicariously through others, but i wish i had a cool group of friends that i can go on road trips with and be comfortable around and talk to and not worry about whether they like me or not. I’ve had really toxic friendships in the past but i dont want that to hold me back as a person. I’m 21 so im still young and not tryna live life in a linear way, but i was also sheltered during my teen years so i feel like i have missed out on a lot of experiences growing up.

Other

Are they even friends when they reach out in need and never there when you need them?

What are the 4 qualities of an unhealthy friendship? I believe now I have enough experience to share this with you. No 1: You get bad vibes.. You really how toxic they are when they don't be happy on your achievement, always try to pull you down, discredit your mental health..
No 2: the ones who are always demanding.. these people don't even want to understand your situation, and if you fail to turn up even once due to genuine concerns.. they will be really hateful towards you... 
No 3: talk bad about you behind your back.. true friends support and uplift you in front of others and not just put you down.. 
No 4: They try to change you for the worse and manipulate you... manipulative people gaslight you and make you think something is really wrong with you all the time. They will never make you feel good, but rather insecure about your capabilities, skills, and everything else.

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