Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel stuck in a place i dont want to be . I dont know whats wrong with me . And all i want is to be understood .i want to get a divorce but im afraid to do it. No one seems to get what im trying to point . Im not happy with him i feel left out not loved and i think my brain is creating all of this and in reality everything is fine . I wanna dig a hole and burry myslef in it . I keep saying i need to do better and i keep failing . I hate my self and the way i look and do things i can never feel good .i want my brain to stop just for a second because its killig me and i cant do anything. I tried to talk but why bother when noone understands .