I feel sooo bored and depressed. I have achieved my bachelors after 5 years. I should be celebrating. But i feel like shit idk why. I live alone away from home. Ppl say that i should get a girl but I dont feel like loving someone i feel irritated whenever i feel someone is getting into my life. I dont know why. Being with friends also doesn't satisfy me. 

Start off by focusing on yourself. Try to mind out what makes you happy. Even the smallest of things that bring you joy. Focus on them. Build on your interests. See what makes you feel depressed and bored. Try to figure out why that's happening. The key is to focus on yourself. 

Focus on yourself
And learn to enjoy life 
The little things 
The birds flying or the sun setting or just a good meal 
It might help

Depression

You should enjoy the little detours
To the fullest
Because that's where you'll find the things
More important than what you want

Other

I need someone with whom I can share book pictures, some excerpts, some paras.. and some random internet blogs on History, Philosophy, Psychology, business, etc, etc, maybe then have a discussion or share each other's pov.
Somebody who acknowledges all this, and reads, is not necessarily right now. They also share their reading, videos, anything.
I might overwhelm you with a lot of pictures & blogs, but is there anybody who wants a friend like this?
I'm a guy & all this convo happening over t_ele.
 

3am Thoughts

Here I am, alone.
Don't know whom to talk.
Just writing whatever's in my mind.
She broke up with me don't know how many times, LOL 😅 But, this time it seems to be the final one cause she hasn't texted since 2 months.
We used to argue based on her past & she kept on running behind him even if I said I didn't like him.
At one point when we had a fight, she blocked me & started following him & today the scenario is the same.
He lives 2kms from her & I'm 200kms away & still I believed her. But, what she did purely is a cheating as if she couldn't get out of her past relationship, she shouldn't have approached me at all. & Let finish with a magical ending, she had 4 past relationships & mine was the first & the last may be.
Now she hangsout with her so called "new friends" not even caring about me.
So I have blocked her from everywhere.
She also refused to hangout with me saying I don't feel cheating my family & does night just with her newly made friends online whom she barely knows since last 7 days.


Cheating

So, I’ve been very private about this whole incident of my life. I am a bright child with excellent academics, but I was never good at math! So I went to coaching for extra classes by my school teacher. There was this guy , who was my senior and used to come there with his cousin. I never really looked at him deeply. It was just that ya he is there and after his batch left, he used to sit with us for extra work(that time only I and my other classmate used to go as a part of our batch. So including the guy and his cousin and our teacher we were all total 5 people ) after some time this girl from my class joined our coaching , she was a below average academic record holder, but we became best friends(very strange for someone like me who has always been an introvert and she was my first ever best friend) I helped her so many times, once she was even about to commit suicide but I saved her. Once she got failed so was scared of her parents reaction and was saying that she would die, but I asked my mother to call up our teacher and ask him to not disclose her marks in front of her parents and I also kept crying, I used to call her my sister as we went to the classes in the same cab! So she one day told me that I think this guy (the senior) likes you. I said what rubbish no no he can’t why would you say so? So she told me that no no I have seen it in his eyes, he likes you, whenever you smile or laugh he looks at you and smiles, whenever you feel low he is also sad and he keeps staring at you. I was blank but off course if someone says such things to you , you somewhat start to believe them..so did I..after that I developed sort of crush feelings for him and I noticed that the signs my friend was talking about were true, our friendship evolved , he even dropped me to my home once, one day I baked a cake at my sir’s place because his wife wanted to learn from me, so that senior of mine waited the whole time there only to have the cake. But after we baked it and I de moulded it it was baked from top but runny from inside because of some microwave malfunctioning, and I was about to cry, but even then he tasted it and he told me no no * my name * this is so amazing! It’s really tasty don’t worry..so I got happy. Then we created a WhatsApp group for our coaching batch , I thought of it as a good opportunity to get his number, so when I was added in the group I quickly saved his number..but he didn’t save mine as I was unable to see his dp, but my best friend was able to(I felt something weird) but I thought he will save mine soon. And he did after 2-3 days. My best friend used to tease him with my name and used to send me screenshots of the whole teasing chats she had with him to make me believe he liked me. Days passed by, and after being pressurised for a long time I told him on WhatsApp that I liked him with a big msg, but he said that friendship is much better trust me. So I said ya ya it was just a dare so I was letting you know, he used to wave me a goodbye each time I used to leave the coaching centre and I used to smile back at him. Long story short many such incidents happened where he cared for me but now I realised that he is in relationship with my best friend, and I don’t know what was fake, his love for me or my best friends love for me , who is not talking to me after I confronted her and I’m labelled as the girl who fights over a boy and destroys her relations, I don’t know it’s been 2 yrs but I’m unable to get out of the whole trauma, I yelled at the guy also through WhatsApp only, and we had temporarily blocked each other, but he still has my number, I don’t understand why but whenever I post a WhatsApp status he still sees it. His dp is still visible to me even though we don’t talk, and I still wait for the day when he would text me, I don’t understand why! Why he hasn’t blocked me? Why he still has my number? Why he still shows these signs? What should I do? I don’t know if he and my friend are still in a relationship because I never asked her! I fought with her but now we have started talking again! And each time I look at her or him I’m reminded of all the past things and it hurts even more and even not a single day passes without me thinking of him. 

Love

Why it's always about girls , females not about human beings? Whether male or female! 

Discrimination

Just wanted to know how your day has been so far.:)

Little miss has so much love to give and even more hate as a shield. 

Teenagers

I feel exhausted and irritated around my parents .. lately it has increase to a point am not able to control like before... I know that it is cause of so much of pent-up guilt that backfired and is now anger... It sort of justifying.. before I never used to show it.. I wonder why suddenly I am showing it as if am comfortable in showing my this side..  as if they are going to be as understanding as they were with my sister...
They don't deserve me and I don't deserve them... Relationship full of guilt from my end atleast. Were they always understanding? If they were why did I feel such unfair treatment between me and sis... I don't wanna be comfortable with them eniught to be irritated and feel endless guilt



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