I feel so stuck ,i feel so pathetic for calling someone and asking him to sort out when clearly he dosen't want to he always chooses others over me like i was never his priority like if u wanna go just go i am not gonna do any effort to keep u i have other problems too i feel humiliated like in these 4 years this neve made a singlr effort to keep me in his life..

It's okay to be not okay Hon, shit happens, we gotta learn our lessons, correct our mistakes and do much better, coz we are running out of time on this world, we have to do great things and we don't have time for these kinda people who drains us

Now it's time to make yourself priority and move on..get busy with your hobbies n family

Anxiety

Bas har jagah shadiyan hi shadiyan... Duhh

Marriage

My mum feels as if i don't appreciate her. I really do, she does everything for me and would give me the world. She almost started crying. I also picked flowers and she saw them  and she asked who they were for and i said a teacher but not for her it's for a project and i feel so bad:((
WHUT DO I DO?!?!?!?!?

My life continues to be a garbage, joyless thing that I wish to discard. Nothing joyful comes in. Just more issues. I have always treated everyone nice and have done so much but I always get the short end. I have no real friends or a relationship. I feel sad all the time. I just wanna pack my things and go but I cant. I’m too scared to do anything and I have no money to support myself. I don’t know why I was created like this. So defected. So scared and lonely. I don’t have anything to keep me going and yet I am forced to. Why am I here? Why do I feel like all I do is suffer and scream in my head everyday. I don’t feel that joy that everyone else feels. Everyday I wake up and sleep with how I felt the day before. Empty. I am so tired. I just want to stay asleep. 




Depression

Where the fellow insomniacs at??? 👀


Tell me any thing about your place/city. I would love to read. In my city there are historical buildings and mostly people speak Urdu. 

3am Thoughts

Has anyone of you ever felt that you let go of a wonderful person just because of your mistakes or immaturity??  Or some other circumstances ?? What's that feeling like ? 

I am scared to sleep and I am exhausted please help me

Exhausted

This discussion goes upto a very different level and so am not able to express it out to anyone in person, though it has a very valid and practical point of view according to me, but it is emotionally and socially extremely triggering when it comes to talking to someone very close to you. Another issue is, I am just in my late teenage. 
So recently I lost my maternal grandmother and I had a breakdown. You would find me very rude when I say that I am happy for her that she passed away and sad for all that has come to me from her 'unintentionally'. 
I now feel like not having kids in future. It's not because I don't like children or neither it's because I fear labour. I curse my heredity for this thought of mine. 
From my paternal family I have the issue of hypertension and a chance of being a slight issue of paralysis (not sure). But from my maternal side, it's a huge family of diseases that is ready to engulf me anytime. 
So my grandma who passed away, I have always wondered thinking of 'how she survived for so long?' It's because, she had been through 3 accidents which led to 3 rods in her body replacing bones. She had survived through 4 paralysis attacks, and 2 major and 1 minor strokes. And all this she had survived with a hereditary linage of 'diabetes'. 
I just feel like, I don't want to create a faulty population similar to me. And also I want to know what you as a reader think of it.. Like am I overthinking or something like that... I don't know, but it's really important kind of. 
So feel free to give your views on it🙂

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