I feel so pathetic at this stage, this environment has made me feel the lowest, all the mental breakdown and anxiety attacks. Does running from the problem that's ruining you makes you coward? That's what I feel every time and feel more miserable.

It doesn't make you a coward, it shows that you're intelligent enough to leave things in the past and move on. Don't be disheartened, keep going. :) 

Mental Health

I'm not one for this type of Internet rant but idk I guess it would be nice to talk to a stranger about how... Well idk... How miserable it's been... just so as not to bother my friends who all have their own life and work and I know would constantly try to go out of their way to help me

Anxiety

What always makes someone miserable is that they are not getting what others having, something(love, time, affection, encouragement, happiness) they can get from other people(fnds, family, associates). 
If we take a moment to analyse this situation of miserableness, it is only in mind. Nobody gets what they actually want in first place. Every single soul either accept what they get, or simply deny what they don’t want.
Some people keep this miserable state of mind for more time than the thing could last.
Human nature doesn’t need constant same state of mind, nor the path of a individuals life.
Come over from this insignificant things, there are more things to go through in life.  

3am Thoughts

Hey
Wassup
Kaise hai sab log?

Acquaintance

Im 24 years old studing in iit, staying in hostel. Everyone called me dumb and lazy, I don't know, i face like that or everyone scolds that im dumb, I don't know how to react to them. 
I afraid to tell them anything they making fun of me and why im this much of dumb i used to tell my dad you should have to think wisely to tackle situation but im feeling im like my dad.
everyone making fun of me, I don't know whether im talking immature or something else but they telling ur kid and not muture enough for your age.
Im feeling discourge and losing my self esteem, im new to this hostel life,
Im in confusion whether its like this bostel and in friends circle or they behaving rudely.
I have my friends circle but they respect me alot and i respect everyone except same from them, i never disrespect anyone with words.
But im seeing everyone disrespecting others and my friends talking disrespectful words on girls when we go others, iam never used to listen that type of words on women.
Im thinking do all boys talk like that, or im not mature to think wisely im confused.


Teenagers

Left home yesterday
Walked 80km at night from Solan to Chandigarh
Down to my last 500rs.
Sitting roadside with last of my 20% phone battery in scorching heat not having a clue about what to do next.

NUMB

Hustle

Just put vader bobblehead in the car now back to work 

Happy

bodyache

Depression

I wouldn’t want to call myself as somebody who’s easily affected by the thought of people dying , it may sound insensitive , but i’ve accepted it & it will happen & there’s nothing you can do about it . I’ve always felt that i’m quite emotionally sound & stable unless it doesn’t concern people close to me . But what i thought of me wasn’t quite true , it was only a regular friday , i was posted in the emergency department & as second year medical students , you aren’t given much attention & your only job is to take history of the patient , who is pretty annoyed by this time to be answering the same questions. Here we enter the department , and i see a boy almost my age on the bed , thinking that our senior would attend to him but it turns out he was already dead ; my eyes instantly didn’t want to look there , i didn’t want to be there , i didn’t want to see that , each of us looking at other helpless like what just happened . Hearing of somebody die & seeing a person die are to different things i believe now . His mother was not ready to admit the fact that he wouldn’t be fine anymore , she was talking to him and telling him i’ll take you to a better place , you’ll be completely fine , don’t worry . She was so anxious to get him out of this place but the hospital has its own protocol ; they took his thumb prints on the death certificate and her mother still shouting at the doctors just to leave him alone & let go of him . I saw his younger brother looking at him and crying . I felt so many emotions as to if i am supposed to be feeling this way , this is going to happen every day , is it fine to feel this weak . I just walked out of the department , straight up called my friend from his department told him what happened and started crying . I felt so helpless & disheartened . This happened months back from this date , why am i writing now ? I had a practical exam today of forensic medicine where they talk about post mortem examination & thanatology in detail . All it reminded me was of the boy , still gives me those chills , i can still picture his mother talking & it just makes me sad to this day!!!

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