I feel so lonely everytime my mom starts throwing tantrums. I wish you hasn’t left N. I wish you were there. At least I could have talked to you and felt better. But you had to leave, without saying anything. You disappeared quietly from my life. I wish you would come back. But it’s been a year now and I have tried to make peace with your absence even tho there’s no peace in my life. Do you miss me N? Or did our 5 year long bond just vanish into nothingness? Mom is being an absolute b rn and things seem very hard without you. She has started throwing tantrums again. I hate that mad woman. She has made my life miserable. I wish you were here but you probably will never come back. I miss you. I always did and I always will because nobody can take your place.