I feel so lonely and sad and no one is listening to me I wanna cry some days I’m so happy some days I’m so sad. Today I am scrolling through instagram reels and every reel is making me cry
and they aren’t even emotional. I’m so stressed out about my assignments. I have never got a Atkt in my college life but this year has been so stressful I haven’t submitted an assignment because I am not able to come up with any idea of how I’m supposed to do anything I’ve been asking for help and thinking what to do but I’ve got nothing I am helping others do their assignments but whenever I ask for help I don’t get it in return but I can’t say no my biggest problem is that I can’t say no to anyone I help people I even helped my bully he always calls me names and makes fun of me behind my back and I’ve confronted him before he told me sorry but he still keeps on doing it I feel so hurt I love my body and I love the way I look but now I’m just scared to switch my camera on in class because I feel I look ugly I don’t have friends anymore. I used to have a lot of friends in school but now everyone is drifting away I feel so lonely and I stress out so much I don’t open up anymore I used to never ever have problems I was so happy and energetic but after I joined my degree college I feel so low and unappreciated I have so much more to type and talk about I just want someone to hear my out even while typing this I’m getting emotional I want to feel loved I want to love someone why is it so difficult for me to be happy.
Hey buddy!! Don’t worry everything will be fine. Everyone is facing hard times in this phase of lockdown, but we have to keep going!! You know night always increases sadness. Just wake up early, have some fresh air in the morning, enjoy nature!! And the most important thing, start deleting negative things from your life. Don’t like/share/save sad depressing posts on the Instagram, this will make your Instagram toxic!! Just start searching for positive posts. Don’t stop helping others even though they are bad with you But help yourself first!!! You are the most beautiful person for me so just don’t care what others think. Just ENJOY YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST!! Don’t fucking give upp!! Ik you are the strongest!!
It sounds like you are a very caring and thoughtful person! The fact that you are helping others with their assignments when you aren’t doing your own shows how much you care for others and how valuable relationships are to you, that is great! It really hurts when you feel like you have love and care and attention to give to others but you don’t receive it back-- I’m dealing with that right now too, it sucks.
College is a very transformative time of life, it’s normal to have friends drift away, but it doesn’t make it easier, that’s for sure! You will find your people, it takes time sometimes and we are living in such a strange time, everyone is feeling tired and lonely and sad to some degree. I am sorry that you are having to go through college living in such an upside down world! I am sorry you’re feeling this way. Who is the one friend you feel most comfortable with? Lean into that relationship, sometimes all it takes is one good friend to make a huge difference!
