I feel so lonely and I feel I don't belong, I don't know what to do with my life. 

Yes, most of the time. I have really good friends and they support me and they get me, but I still don't feel good. 

Learning to enjoy your own company is difficult. But rewarding. There's only one way to solve that, that is showing some love to youself. Take care of your hair, your skin, keep youself fit, pamper your body. You will love yourself back. Learnt and experienced this 3 months ago

Do you feel lonely even when you're with your people?

Lonely

19th april is around the corner. 
Fir dil tootega, fir dil royega, fir dil khudko kosega. 
Nahi dekha jayega merese magar dekhna hai


3am Thoughts

Karke Mohabbat humne,khud ko sataya bohot hai.🥀

Always be ready to say goodbye to anything.

Mindfulness

Anyone here for dil ki baat??

Crush

Good

Delusion

Do you think when you tend to share your feeling with someone too much, share with them what you feel everytime....the other one tends to become irritated after a point of time....maybe its because they start seeing thier own reflection and it kind of pinches them sometimes???? Open for discussion on this.

Friends

Anytime from Bangalore 

Social Anxiety

"Putting yourself as someone inferior will lead you to nowhere"

A line that has been lingering in my mind for the past 3 years. I can't get it out but now I guess that in just a course of a few months more, I will leave Junior High, I guess it's time to get this out of my mind. I myself am someone who has low toned voice. My thoughts are always kept to myself since that day. I don't let out my thoughts on a certain discussion unless they ask me...that's why I got dubbed as someone who is an introvert. But in reality I'm not, I just lost my voice and my courage to say an opinion out loud without a mask or a push.

It all happened in the 7th grade. In our class, we were all grouped into 3 for a slogan making contest, the group with the best slogan in the class will be for competition against the entire campus. I was grouped with someone I'm closed with that day and someone whom I think is someone superior. I don't know why I thought of her like that. In reality I can also run against her in a lot of things, I knew that I was more than her. Yet she makes me feel small...inferior. Up until now, I still wonder why I was thinking like that. Maybe because the whole class like her? I still don't know.

We were once close, we ate lunch together, we laughed, and we had fun. But after Christmas Break, suddenly the wind changed. I don't know why but she started gathering everyone against me. They all started ignoring me. Even if I have now patched things up with some of those people and we are all close once again I still can't find the courage to ask them what happened. 

Mind that this activity happened after Christmas Break, around March. So we all decided that the one whom I'm closed with would become the leader. We would just help. Our leader asked us for our thoughts on what we should put on our board. I suggested, "I may wear a smile that can last but it is just a mask" , the theme was about mental health, about depression awareness like that. So our leader agreed that it was great. It has the perfect rhyme an it was catchy!

But her, she was gonna be the one who's gonna do the calligraphy, cause she's the only one in our group who knows how to. She said it was too long and it was ugly to hear. She doesn't feel like it was a good slogan to put up against the entire campus just in case, and it doesn't spread awareness. She was saying all the terrible things possible on just a few words that came out of my mouth. Our leader said if she doesn't like then we could change so there's no fight because we need all hands of deck here, in where we should all agree on the slogan. And since one wasn't agreeing we can't go with that.

Eventually we ended up using slogan about something like a connection to life being so stay here longer like that, I kinda forgot. That day, my cousin and I were having lunch at the cafeteria. It was her class that afternoon and their group still haven't had a word for their slogan. I suggested her our supposed to be ours. 

Later that day our slogan wasn't picked. Our teacher said she likes the way it was calligraphed but the words were so off. Another group was picked to represent our class. My cousin on the other hand, their slogan was picked. Their teacher said they could fixed the calligraphy for a little bit then it would be send of to represent their class. Their class won the competition.

If only I tried fighting for my slogan that day. We could have won, our class could have one. If only I didn't let myself become inferior...But what can I do those are done. I'm not growing up leaving. 

It feels light to let this out.

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