Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel so lonely and empty these days. And i find myself overthinking a lot and craving validation. I feel quite stupid to be so hung up about it but i cant help it. Like right now i feel upset that no one is replying my messages. I keep staring at my phone willing to a mesage to come in so that i can just talk to someone. I feel so lonely. Was i being too annoying? Rationally i know they might be busy, but it still upsets me anyway even though i know it shouldnt. I thought about making friends on twitter, and i did try. But i found it so hard to interact, to keep a convo going without it being awkward. And when i do try and fail, and get no interactions in return, it upset me. im too focused on the notifications icon. And when a certain post of mine doesnt get traffic i get sad, like maybe no onesaw it? Am i basically just invisible? Did i say sometjing that offended them, something they didnt like? Something no one cares about? And because of it these days i feel like talking to people - making actual conversations are not worth it if all i get in return is disappointment. Like why bother?

I feel so stupid that small petty things have the power to make me feel so shitty about myself.