I feel so inferior on dating sites by seeing girls photos that mera mann hi nhi krta dating apps download karne ka.


Pata nhi chahiye kya hota h girls ko aaj tak bhagwan nhi jaan paaye toh hum kya h 😂😂😂

Bhai bhookh ke alawa bhi body need hoti h u know what I mean ??😂😂

Yrr give up nhi yahan log offend ho jaate h bht jaldi

Aare jo phle bola tha wahi smjh looo 😂😂😂😂😂

Good bye. Bro mein zara pizza hi mangwa lun 

Haan bas install hi krte h aage kuch nhi 😂

Hey there. See irrespective of whether you are attractive to the opposite sex or not, you still have value. And regarding your inferiority, let me tell you that I have very gorgeous female friends of mine dating guys who are just average in looks. Those guys are good human beings, intelligent, ambitious, driven and have a good personality. A fact about dating apps- many photos are edited. So what you see might not be the truth

Feeling alone, aur neend be nhi aa rahi ha

3am Thoughts

How do you feel agar parents ye bole ki tujhe padha kar galti ki, just because you want to be independent and fir ye bhi bol de indirectly ki tujhe paida kar bhi galti ki !!



Life

AKELA HU MAIN SAYAD

Ki mana mene kari thodi galatiya 
Tha thoda sa nasamaj me

Thi thodi si kami mujme 
Tha thoda oro se alg me

Sapne bde the mere to 
Ghar chor diya
Are apne khush 
Pyar se muh mod liya

Akele pan bhr rha tha dil me
Labo se ruh ko jod liya 

Thodi nadadi thi yha 
Shehro se jo rishta jod liya
Socha chl jau ghr apne

Par gya ghr to pta chla
Humse to mehmano sa rishta jod liya

Aakhe bhar aayi meri jb 
Wo gudiya bol uthi
Is chirag ko taraju me tol uthi

Ki na smj h apno ki 
Na khud koi khyal h


Kya me itna bura lgne lga hu sbko
Mere gamo ka rene do
Krte mere khush hone pe sawal h



Problem -
mera din bhar normal chal rha hai pr koi thought ya feeling trigger ho ja rha hai phir main sochte chale ja rha hun aur uske baad andar se feeling sad  ho ja rha k6 krne ka mn nhi kr rha hai n pdne ka n k6 aur bs aankh bnd krke sona chahta hun  aur phir pura din aur raat bit ja rha hai jb tk main soke phir se n uthu tb tk mujhe ku6 aur krne ka mn hi nhi kr rha bss so jana chahta hun main

( ye chize pi6le 4 saal se chal rhi hai phle main mobile mein note likhta tha pr likhte likhe sb note bhar gyi keep note aur Microsoft ka one note bhut jyada bhar chuka hai ki main unhe nhi smjh nhi skta hun) 



Mujhe pdne hai pr main padh nhi paa rha hun. 
Main subh se hi apne thought aur feeling se bahr nhi aa pa rha hun.

 Jb tk in thought ar feeling p discuss n kr lun tb tk main pdai nhi kr paunga....

Thought-
1 main chahta hun duniya ruk jaye ya main gayb ho jau duniya se kyonki main phas chuka hun main harne wala hun aur brbad hone wala hun mera 4 yr btech ka brbad hone wala hai ...
Lekin ye chiz main pi6le saal bhi chaha tha aur uske baad bhgwan ne covid krke college bnd ho gya mujhe time mila 1yr apne aap ko apni gltiyon ko Sudharne k liye pr iske bawjood phir after 1 yr bhi main kmjor hun mujhe aur time Chahiye
Lekin ab sby khatm hone wala hai aur main brbad ho jaunga mere sare sapne tutne wale hai aur ye mujhe pi6le 2saal se dar rha tha ki khi main haar na jau aur iske bawjood in 2 saal k baad bhi main apne dar p jit nhi pa paya ... Ye meri failure hai ab isme koi hope nhi hai ye hoke rhega ab...

3 Aaj ek information thi jo main share krna chaha kisi se 
Pr main paya ki koi mera apna hai hi nhi jisase main k6 bhi share kr sku 
Aur agar main unlog ko ye information share kru mtpb jo mujhe apna mante hai to we khus ho jayenge mujhe phone krenge mujhse baat krenge aur mera aur time brbad krenge aur main k6 unse puchhna chahunga to wo nhi btayenge

mujhe dost manane wale bhut hai wo sb mujhe apna maan k mujhe apni 1-1 personal baat jbrdsti sunate hai. In 4 saal mein ye dost jo mujhe apna manate hai itna mera time brbad kiye hai aur main sunta gya kyonki main feel krta tha ki wo mujse thoda jya poor hai ya uske father mother thode jyada old hai ya mujhe apne dost ki baat sunani Chahiye 


Pr is duniya m koi bhi nhi hi jisase main apni feeling share kr sku jise main apna samajh k apni preshani bta sku 
Maa papa se bhi main k6 bhi share nhi krta hun. Lekin abse main thoda bhut jrur share krunga apni feeling ko, lekin main unhe apni preshani sunake aur preshna nhi krna chahtahun

3 meri sbse bdi kmjori hai ki main apne trike se jindagi nhi ji rha hun. Jha rhta hun wha koi na koi dost mujhe gulam bna leta hai phir wo mujhe apni puri baate usko jo man hai wo baat mujse krta rhta hai 
Phir wo pdai kr leta hai uske baad mobile m song chalane lgta hai ya baat krne lgta hai aur phir main pdai nhi kr pata hun pr iske bawjood main use mna nhi kr aise
Aise hi bachpn se chala aa rha jitne bhi mere dostb  jo mujhe apna bolte hai wo aaj tk mujhse happy baat krte hai aur hmesa mere sath time spend krna chahte hai pr ab main unse bhut dur bhag jana chhata hun kyonki main unka gulam bn chuka hun wo mujhe apne anusar nacha dete hai aur main bs ha mein ha krta rhta hun.

4 kya vc sir ya professor meri baat ko smjhenge notice m to likha tha ki jo nhi agree hoga unka separate exam krayenge pr ab after covid k kewl k6 student k liye college wale exam krayenge ...
In 4 yr m college wale student k demand p koi baat mane - Nhi - To ye kaise maan lenge - aur tb phur main kya krunga agar vc sir mna kr diye ???

5 Main new yr p resolution liya hun ki aaj k baad main jh rhunga wha apne emotion ko apni feeling ko jaise past 20yr se neglect ya dusro k samne aoni feeling ki value nhi krta hun aaj k baad main aisa koi step ya action nhi krunga jh main apni feeling k against kiya...
Is Resoulution ko mujhe bhulna nhi hai..



Feeling-
1 ye mhsus ho rha ki ye duniya meaningless hai 
2 main jo kr rha wo sb k6 ek din khtm ho jyga 
3 main akela hun life mein 
4 k6 bhi shi ya glt decision nhi le paa rha 
5 main apne aap ko bhut chizo mein week pa rha hun 
6 main chahta hun ki jinhone  mujhe mere purane ghar se nikala hai unse bdla le sku ya bhgwan unko sbk sikhaye 
7 jinhone mere papa ko preshan kiya unse bdla chahiye 
8 un sbhi ladko ko main maaf nhi kr skta jo mere papa ko gali deke mjak udate kyonki wo ek ******* hai 
9 un aone dosto ko maaf nhi kr skta jo apni khusi k liye mujhe brbad kiya ya actual mein main apne aap ko maaf nhi kr paunga ki main apna time, money, apne maa papa k dream ko soche bjay apne dosto k karan apni life brbad kr diya.

10 un professor ya teacher ko nhi bhulna chahta jinhone mujhe kwl draya hai kewl aur ant mein mere time brbad kiya aur bs isliye taki wo thoda superior bn ske ar student professor se dre ki fail to nhi kr dega 

Pr ye thought aur feeling khtm hi nhi ho rhe hai 
Aur kya likhu aise to bhut si inferiority hai sawla hun, pdne m accha nhi hun, dressing sense ni hai, table tennis k 2 aise match hai jinhe haara hun main bhula nhi skta baar basr jb bhi yaad ata hai main emotional ho jata hun, 
akela hun bchpn se, single hun ya koi mtlb nhi kyonki main aaj tk koi crush bnaya hi nhi kyonki main apne aap ko love ya gf iske liye main eligible nhi hun, akele rhna chahta hun puri jindagi bhar , logo espcl dosto se bhut dar lgta chahta hun sbse kewl anonymously hi baat kru, koi talent nhi hai na hi main koi smart hun,
Is note ko bhi likhe se kya fayda isase bhi k6 thik nhi hone wala jo hona hai wo hoga hi main bs dekh skta hun baki jo hona hai wo to hoke hi rhega 

Lonely

I confess my Frist love to my crush and I feel so relaxed today, why it's like so light, man ki saari baat bata di, 1 koi topic mene apne andar nahi rakha aur sab convey kar diya. Even I rejected but mere man me koi doubt nahi h ki mene abhi tak ka apna 100% nahi diya and mere ko khud pe proud feel ho raha h ki mene apne andar koi kaam nahi rakhi bolte time ❤️❤️❤️

Friends

Ek tarfa pyar ki alag hi khasiyat hoti hai,
Dil se kahi baat Dil mein hi reh jaati hai,
Kehne ka mauka toh hum humesha dhundhte rehte hai,
Par mauka aane par unki dosti kuch bolne hi nahi deti,
Jaante ho uski pasand koi aur hi insaan hai,
Uske mann mein tumhare liye feelings bhi kaha hai,
Uske dil mein tumhare liye sirf dosti ka hi haq hai,
Phir bhi ye pagla mann baat manta bhi kaha hai,
Gallery mein khudse zyada uske photos save karte ho,
Contact name mein uska naam Bold italics mein likhte ho,
Uska message aaye na aaye last seen tumhe hi humesha yaad rehta hai,
Uski pasand Uski choices apne aap tumhari choices ban jati hai,
Woh kahi aur chale toh uska peecha karne ki koshish karte ho,
Woh tumhare paas aaye toh nazrein milane ki saajish karte ho,
Sapne woh kisi aur ko dekhe aur raat bhar tum jaage rehte ho,
Uske chehre par muskan dekh kar din tumhara ban jaata hai,
Agar woh dukhi ho toh Mood tumhara off hojata hai,
Ye ek tarfa pyar bhi na bada kamal ka hota hai,
Samay ke saath ghata nahi,
Sirf badhta hi jaata hai,
Sirf badhta hi jaata hai.

One Sided Love

Bajay Pyaar Ki Shabnum Mere Gulistaan Mein
Baraste Rehte Hain Har Simt Maut Ke Saye
Siyahiyon Se Ulajh Padti Hain Meri Aankhein
Koi Nahi .. Koi Bhi Nahi Jo Batlaye
Kitni Der Ujalon Ki Raah Dekhe
Koi Nahi Hai Koi Bhi Nahi
Na Pass Na Durr
Yeh Pyaar Hai
Dil Ki Dharkan
Apni Chahat Ka Jo Ellan Kiye Jaati Hai
Zindagi Hai Jo Jiye Jaati Hai
Khoon K Ghoont Peay Jaati Hai
Khwaab Aankhon Se Siye Jaati Hai

Breakup

There is a friend A of mine jo mere baare mein bohot jyada bitch krti hai and mere saamne mera well wisher pretend karti hai. I always think of cutting her of but the issue is that she’s my neighbor and we have same school friends circle. So if i lose touch wt her, she’s probably gonna go and talk shit about me to my other school friends. 
There’s a friend Y whose gf is my closest friend. We two go really well. But i never talked to this Y. But now suddenly Y talks to me due to his gf matter. 
Recently merko pata chala ki Y and A ne mere baare mein bitchinh ki hai. Y bolta hai baat mt batao and A se durr raho. But merko sab clear karne ka mann hai. Mene A ko 2-3 baar baat karne and milne kaha but voh taal rhi hai and voh kehti hai ki usne mere liye kuch nhi kaha parr usse mere liye Y ne galat kaha. Abh mujhe nahi pata kon sahi hai kon galat.
Merko naa A se baat karna hai and naa hi Y se. 
But Y se terms off karne se kahi meri close friend ke saath mera terms naa kharab ho jaaye bass yahi soch ke mein kuch bol nahi rhi hu.

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