I feel so distraught. I keep putting in applications but it's getting me nowhere...

3am Thoughts

How can I survive? I dont have money, job and everything seems to be falling apart in my life. I am afraid e everythings seems like suicide is my way out.

I am tired of living like this, I am not like other people, my mind is falling apart and I cant find professional help because of moneyand everything I depend on my sister and dad.

I am tired of this life

Depression

I am not going to class for a while now. I am completely disinterested in every thing right now. I can't concentrate on my studies I can't focus in anytime. I don't know what I want I just feel empty and the feeling like something is going to happen I feel like no one likes me(true as I am just an outcast in my group) friends make me feel like a loser I don't know what I should do. I can't go anywhere I am stuck in this room.


Anxiety

Why everyone wants to pull you back when you want to achieve something?

Kaash ...
aaj rat ko maar jauu

Feeling empty, have no one to talk to, need love, care and attention. Feeling all of this while I have people around me. Why am I the only one who has to try everytime? Even if we’re talking, it feels like I am the only one trying to keep up with the conversation and if I have nothing to say, it’s dead. 

Hello everyone,
I am an overthinker and I never had a problem with that. I used to be proud too because of my overthinking nature because I used to explore all the possibilities and opportunities. But as of now and for the past 2 years I  have been overthinking negative things. I am 23 and I am in a relationship. we both are very good at our careers and we love each other very much. He gives respect to my job, my skills everything. He is not an overthinker. We together are planning to go to the other country for our higher studies and we will be living in our home country for only 44 days more. The only problem I have is he is an addict to porn. He has been watching it since his school days. But after entering into this relationship he understood that I have a problem with him watching porn and he tried and he is evening trying to reduce it. He also said as he habituated to it,  it is just a habit nothing more than that. But he used to see every porn star before our relationship. I tried to understand him and even tried but my mind just can not accept him seeing another girl's body. Whatever am trying to do whatever he is trying to make me understand it is not happening. I am trying to involve in different things to distract from this thought. It is not happening. I just don't want to think abt this and I really love him soo much. I already asked him many and many questions and maybe he was fed up answering me too. I don't want to ask him any other questions or doubts abt this and I don't want to think about it. I am even getting anxiety attacks because of this. Please help me in what way I should be peaceful and have a good sleep. I really don't want to waste my time in this way.

It's easier to hide behind a smile. The funniest guy you know might be barely holding up..

Overthinking

why is this life so hard... it makes hard to even breath here!

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