I feel so anxious about everything at all times. I just want this to stop.


I have tried meditating so many times, my mind cannot focus at all considering I always have a thought in my head.


Anxiety

I've been on dating apps for months now. I think I should accept the fact that it's never going to happen, no matter what I try. Just two matches and neither of them materialised into a date. At this point it's better to give up. It's not like giving up will do me any good, but at least letting go of hope will make my existence easier to bear with. 

Body image

I’ve just posted but wanted to post again soooo
Today we had pe and afterwards I felt just as sad and depressed as before. I just slumped in the corner and sulked. My friends kept asking what’s wrong, are u ok etc but I kept saying I’m fine. They knew I wasn’t. Little did they I’ve felt like this for years but today I didn’t have the energy to hide it and put on a fake smile. I feel so dead. It’s crazy and actually quite scary how much a smile can hide.

Which app do you use the most?

3am Thoughts

You don't want me bs baat khatam.
It took me 2 years and I never felt so detached as I felt today. I did not have the urge to stalk you today. Idk what I did to deserve all of this, that you did not take a small effort just to talk to me. I know you didn't have any obligation to talk to me and chose not to. I'm ready to accept that you never liked me and I was an id iot to think that you liked me. You only liked V and now you're with A. Ugh! I've been so delusional and so hopeful these past years, idk what for. You never tried to reach me once after we got disconnected or after I told you how I felt for you. I'm releasing you. But I never liked someone more and I never will. I do miss you sometimes but that's okay ig. Bye bye. I hope my energy won't bother you , if it ever did by chance☺️

I just wanna sleep with a peaceful mind

It’s been a while…TW for lots so um yeah…um over the summer I tried to kms 2 times. I started SH again after a month of being clean. I cut all my toxic friends out and everyone else. And now I don’t eat for 2 days then binge all the food, then sometimes if I have the energy I purge. So that’s great…I hate myself even more. I hate everyone at my school. I hate my family. I hate my face. I hate my body. I hate my voice. I hate my personality. I hate existing. I struggle to get up in the morning I haven’t changed underwear in 3 days. I haven’t started my summer project and school starts tomorrow. I haven’t showered or bathed in 4 days. I don’t remember the last time I brushed my teeth. Therapy doesn’t really help anymore. My meds don’t help anymore. But I’m too exhausted to try and help myself. I just lay in bed, listening to a 9 hour playlist, and feel bad for myself.

Self Harm

I think I like you best 💗 when you are just with me and no one else ❤️

In the wish to touch the skies,  
I forgot to embrace those inner fights.
In the wish to run ahead,
I forgot to embrace the miles I led.
In the wish to have someone,
I forgot to embrace myself when I had no one.
In the wish to get rid of those worries,
I forgot to embrace all those good memories.

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