Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel really stupid and worthless today… someone that I love dont love me back… someone that I care dont care me back… he promised he will help me with my career, I spend 1000 dolar to buy plane ticket. I saved money for 1 year… I worked in my college and sometime starving to save money… I trust him cs I tought he’s a super nice guy… but I think I’m wrong… I just know he want sex from me… he want naked pict from me. as a conservative girl I against that and we often have a fight bcs I still want he help me but at the fact I cant give what he want… I have really low self esteem about my career so that’s why I needed him alot… nd beside that I love him… but tadaaaaa he block me without saying good bye… he block me alot of times… when he blocked me, I always get frustation and anxiety… always trembling but he keep doing that… at the fact he just use me for sex really upset me. this make me really worthless and sad… I bite my hand and hit my head when he blocked my number… I told him about that, but he still keep doing that to me…