I feel really overwhelmed. I don't want to sound crazy, but there's a possibility that I might harm myself. I don't know what to do and my mind is racing. 

Because I don't matter. I don't deserve to live. 

3am Thoughts

I have realised that we often take things too personally in life, n due to this we suffer. I have suffered for many years but now I have understood that life is just life- whatever happens is not in our control nothing is, so its better to accept n move on than to cry about what u lost n blame yourself for it. There are some things like our talents, gud friends which we get without even asking, we just have them so similarly we should accept the wrongs of our lives without overthinking it, we should learn from our past n not burdern ourselves with it. Nothing is in our control so its better we learn to enjoy life n its moments right now n not live in the past or future, we should pray n meditate- for people with depression n overthinking n anxiety issues meditation is the best medicine trust me I have tried it so please meditate. We are all in this together 

Affirmations

I feel restless 

Anxiety

I hv been hvg a series of badluck in my life. Im worried i might breakdown soon. Im trying to motivate mysf to stay alive and keep fighting. I dunno what to do! I cnt even tell ppl around me about whats hapoening. 1 event after another. Im scared ppl will judge fr things thats been happening. As far as i know all the while i hv done thing with the intention to do good. But i feel like my own plans backfire me n end up im getting in trouble.

The past, it is precious, thought me a lot of things, but, I hate it because it traumatized me, I feel so ashamed like I wanna die but I know my death will not solve anything, in fact, my family will be affected by death, I will leave them in ashamedness, n my siblings, how would they feel if I do something so stupid like that, So I don't want to commit suicide, Now, I just want to live without hesitation, trying my best not to think about what others going to think of me, however, I found its hard, as whenever I did mistakes, I felt like I am worthless as I am really like what people said, I have nobody to share with my feelings as I know if I tell them, they will be disgusted, right? It is common for people when they know about your bad sides they surely will run away, or make it as a joke, or gossip about you behind their back. FYI, I lost a lot of friends because I'm too gross for them, I guess, they never teel tho. now I have one, but ill never share what I truly feel just to stay a friend. I guess it is better that way, no more heartache for backstabbing me, the less they know fewer worries. So, when I'm sad because of me myself, I always imagined strangling my neck with rope or stabbing my chest with a knife repeatedly. Nah, I'm not doing it in real life, just imagine it would not do me harm, would it? it feels good.. so that's all I wanna say.

Depression

Screaming songs in the car together >>> 

Music

Does it ever get better?

Idk I feel like no one will ever love me and my friends will also leave me... i domt show my emotions much often and to scared to confess about love... i might have like someokenin the past but they end up with my friends amd i dont mind that... i did hurt in the start but then everythong seemed fine... ik here no one knows me so i can say a little true abt myself... i feel like i am trying too hard to catch ppl attention, i also feel lonely even when hanging out with friends... i also got body image issues and also some brittle bones and i am over weight as well... i feel like i am a burden on people.. so much so that few days ago i thought like i should jump off my apartment bcoz i was tired of all this pain and sorrows..
Idk what to do with my life.... ik i will not jump but srill... and i have been experiencing nightmares about stuff and having panic attacks during days

Body image

I keep worrying over things that are unlikely to happen.

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