I feel really numb these days and I don't know the reason... I feel lost; it's like I've lost all sense of reality and everything's a blur. I sometimes just stare into space and can just not think of anything and go blank for so long. There isn't a specific reason for me to feel like this... and I really don't know why it's happening

Honestly journaling helped me a lot. I was forced to think of how I felt, opening me up a lot! I would try it and see if you can figure out the root of your problem! 

Everyone will have a tough phase of life to be encountered..i think this is your time to stay strong and take care of your mental health! Eventually everything will be alright 🌻

Confusion

I’ve got so much going on at the moment and have all these different things I’m learning that my head is full 

Acquaintance

I feel delusional. I am thinking of a lot of things I'm gonna have very soon and delusions turn into reality, at least that's what I believe in!
I really want to get out of the place and start living my life, I need to explore the world. The covid situations sadden me a lot. A lot of my knowns have been taken away because of covid but I'm grateful for what I have! Everyday is a new learning process and I love it however, I want to take a break from everything that's been going on! I am thinking of starting my own page tomorrow on Instagram, I'm very excited!
There's this guy, I think I love him which is weird but then I'm very happy around him and then there's this sense of insecurity, a lesser version of insecurity of losing him to someone better which I know is not me and its silly and that's why I'm just letting it out here and then I feel like I should study but I just can't sit in one place. I can't believe I'll be 17 next month. I've been doing things but I wanna amplify myself now, I wanna travel,explore, give my page a big ass boom and I will, I'm very sure of that. Anyway, I hope you're doing okay! Let's talk? 

Life

Lately i am feeling nothing, it feels like life is not going anywhere ,it seems to be stuck

What do you wanna scream out loud 
But don't have the courage to do

Other

I want to end all this 

Suicidal Ideation

Hello everyone, 
I am Koko and I have been going through severe stage depression from like more than 14 years. It's not only depression it's overall kinda package of loneliness, feeling suicidal, feeling helpless, feeling something nowhere to go, social anxiety, feeling tired all of the day and much much more. Everyday i try to get up do some stuffs like cleaning dishes, room, clothes, etc but there is something known as "Black me" who follows me everywhere and when there is no one at home that black me becomes so large that i can't even shower peacefully, it becomes so dreadful. I have heard things like "Be positive", "Chill Bro" n all but to be very honest no things doesn't work like that.. There's so much going through our mind and body that we maybe smiling and laughing outside but inside we are screaming, shouting, crying. Sometimes we are able to show all these emotions but sometimes we don't have even capacity to cry. I am at that phase of life where everything seems lifeless, everything seems hopeless and if you say me this that I don't even have capacity to argue.... My childhood traumas, molestation, tortures and so many disturbing incidents are all the part of my friend "DEPRESSION"... Be it morning or night or anytime of day i am trying yoga, meditation, gymming but all i am getting is depressed. Some people have said me that don't i have topics to talk or why am i so silent i hope this post answers all your queries. I am so much done with this life. 

May God Bless You all and really thanks for reading !! 

3am Thoughts

i have no idea what im doing with my life and i feel stuck but i dont know how to get out. im 23 and still live at home. i have no job. i dont go to school. my family is mentally, verbally, and emotionally abusive. im mentally ill. i feel scared everyday. i dont know what to do anymore. im in the closet and scared to come out but i hate living a lie

LGBTQ

Past few months have been very bad, I just keep reminiscing over my past and feel like ending my life. I feel like no one is there to understand just how low I am. My family thinks it's an act and I have no friends because I don't know how to have friends online. I really want to end it and just give up
I hate my self so so much and I dont even know why. 
Maybe because I am a huge loser who has nothing to love for other than people body shaming me and making jokes and the fact that my whole life people telling me bo one will eve erver love me because I look like this 

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