I feel myself changing. I don’t laugh the same anymore, I don’t smile the same, or talk the same. I’m just tired of everything.

It's just a phase.. hold on to yourself! 🤗♥️

3am Thoughts

Hi, i'm the person who posts about kaku.
So my parents have found a guy for me for marriage, and everyone has said yes, so I also said yes.
I hope I don't ruin anyone's life.
Wish me luck. 

Affirmations

Can’t see the road ahead dnt know what to do. 

Failure

Glimpse of Us by Joji is my soul's anthem. It makes me want to physically BE in a song. Not the music video, just the song itself. 

Exam 😣😖

Frustration

nobody is  in a position to give you any sort of advice, because you have your own struggle which i don't know about, maybe no one knows about but don't keep everything inside , express yourself with whom you feel comfortable here or anywhere, but do share the things that are affecting your mental health.. 

Mental Wellbeing

Okay so I met a guy when I was in 7th grade, back then i didnt ike talking to boys at all but this guy was an exception.He was short and cute, he used to call me sis and make me laugh.so I started talking to him.By the end of 10th grade we got really close. I used to tie him rakhi every year. but in 11th and 12th we could'nt meet atleast once since,he was in hostel.He even got disappointed that i did'nt tie him rakhi that two years. during those two years he was in a really dark phase. so was I, but I got help from psychologist and I got better.but he refused to see doctor. even though it wasnt easy I kept talking to him frequently as I could'nt leave him alone in that phase cause he was only talking to me and his other two guy friends.Coming to engineering he was getting better and day by day we grew closer to eachother and without my knowledge I got so used to him, I became emotionally dependent on him.He started to become possessive.and he used to take my every word so seriously. My little words and acts would effect him a lot. I got really scared, so I tried to stop talking to him but after few weeks we ended up talking to eachother again, we could'nt resist.And now in engineering third year he proposed me knowing that I dont have feelings for him and i dont believe in love or relationships at all.so i said no.and now we stopped talking,its been 5 days and really miss him a lot and I want to talk to him, but if I do that he might think I'm selfish.I really dont know what to do.I dont have clarity on how I feel about him anymore, I obviously dont have any romantic feelings towards him at all but I think emotionally I do a lotttt!!what do I do now?And I know he would treat me very good and how special I'm too him.He is mad about me and that is what scares me the most sometimes.

My first word for 2023 is that make sure the people you allow into your life, your personal space has as much plan for you as you do for them to often we allow people who can’t even phantom  what is there plan for us in 3 months time or even 1 year time but deep down in our heart we have plan so much of our life with them we even create illusions of what we would love to accomplish  with them things you will establish, crate together with them it doesn’t matter the kind of relationship you have, if they don’t have a single plan for you they’re not supposed to be in your life cuz think about it if they don’t have any plan for you imagine how worthless you’re to them in as much as you value them I believe whoever values you will always have plan for you no matter the circumstances of how things might be. 

Growing Up

Brown families are just bunch of folks who are ready to demotivate you at every point of life. 

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