I feel lonelyā¦ Iām aloneā¦everyday every nightā¦I have friendsā¦a significant number but still somethingās empty inside me. I have friends I love so muchā¦they love meā¦care about me but still whenever I talk about my depression, stress, anxiety to anybody I donāt feel understoodā¦it feels like they are used to itā¦me crying about everything I feel wrong about my lifeā¦and I can understand themā¦ itās not easy to listening to people taking about their problems. Even in my home I feel very alone that I canāt talk to no oneā¦ because everyone says pull yourself together and do right things stop complainingā¦ nobody understand that you might be in pain which just wonāt go awayā¦I feel like Iām hiding every second from everyoneā¦my parentsā¦that they donāt see the real me who is weak, miserable, scared of every little problem. Whenever I try to share something with my people ā¦it feels light for some time but later makes me feel more aloneā¦because for a minute I took the burden off but then that realisation that nobody understood how suffocating everything is becomingā¦and I feel like I canāt breatheā¦why I am so patheticā¦ depressedā¦it would be much easier if I didnāt overthink things.
And then there is painā¦not just mine everyoneāsā¦so much pain and I canāt stop noticing itā¦ thereās one thing that you see peopleās pain and help or pray or something elseā¦and then thereās other thing that you see peopleā¦their pain do nothing just starts to feel itā¦which is probably stupidā¦I do thatā¦I see any problem my parents facingā¦I blame myself for it and I canāt stop itā¦I feel responsible for everythingā¦if I could just be normalā¦get a job and help themā¦if i could just do according to themā¦I have taken so much blame on myselfā¦ nobodyās know of itā¦only I knowā¦ itās very heavyā¦my heart is very heavy all the timeā¦ Iām tiredā¦I donāt like living with myselfā¦so miserable !!
I feel the same. Let me know if you want to talk to me
i can truly relate. once i expressed this felling to my friend and she said me
HEY LOOK AT YOURSELF . YOU ARE SIMPLY BLAMING ALL OF THESE ON TO YOUR SELF . YOU ARE SO STRONG DEEP DOWN. EVERYONE HAS A TURNING POINT AND I AM SURE THAT YOURS IS COMING ON THE WAY. I still did not find my turning point but has always believe every moment is a turning point. so stay strong. if you want you can talk to me
šš thank youā¦and I know a turning point will definitely come because a day will come when Iāll open up about everything I feelā¦and them everyone will have to listen to meā¦ because no one should live life thisā¦it has to stop feeling like this šā£ļø
Talking helps š