I feel like my heart is broken I just cut things off with my befriend due to out growing , not being real , and a lot of reason but i finally had enough and cut it off . I told her how i felt and tgt we should move on and she said she gots it . I feel so sad rn idk why it hurts so bad im the type of person to not care if a fall out with someone due to what i have gone through in life so far but this shit hurt and i hate it cuz i still love her and care about her but im never going to talk to her again and i fucking hate it .

Hey, when u cut off from someone who you had so much contact from so long and a deep relation. It's not easy.and there's a void and it's okay to miss that person. If u had the right reasons to cut off then it's okay. With time it will be fine

Friends

We were on a movie date today. We had a great time together. We ate.. we laughed.. i dropped her at her home. But one thing I don't understand why i am missing her so bad??

Overthinking

I just need some opinion to move away from my gf. I don't wanna end things with her cause I know both of us can't be without each other.. but day by day I'm feeling she is taking me for granted and always blaming me even when I'm sick.. I just want to make her feel scared of losing me.. the fears she had in the beginning of relationship when I told her I need a break!! I want that..

Lonely

A month before my 21st birthday, out of nowhere, she asked my how long since my last escapade in sex?  I told her it was with her, nearly 2 years back. She chuckled and told me she had one a couple of month back. And she went on to explain how I shouldn’t be affected and that it was time to move on.
Dear reader, now its getting dark. My eyes have swollen. Things I am recalling, haven’t been said or thought of, by me, ever since that fateful night in February 2019 when we said our goodbyes . I used to be smart, elegant, kind and loving. I have spent 2 years in loving a woman, and a year courting her. I feel as if someone took my heart out and squeezed it. I have seen things in my life, but I was never hopeless. I was always looking forward to something. But with her gone, out of my life, I do not see the reason to live. My past will soon catch up with me. And when it does, I don’t want to go out like a shadow of a man. I am nothing now. I study, I work and keep myself busy. But every second, I feel , dead. She was the only thing keeping my alive and happy. And someone up in the fucking clouds, has taken my happiness away for the last time. I am lost without her. For some reason I have this constant pain in my lungs. Or heart. I don’t know. All I know is that cigarettes will push your loved ones away. It would take away your sense of smell. All I try to do now is try and finds her smell. But cigarettes have made my sense of smell weak. I cant even remember how she smells. I cant. I want to. Its getting dark again. Too dark to see

Breakup


I got engaged but my ex is telling me it could have worked out between us

Met my ex in college. She was in a long distance relationship at that time which didn’t worked out and we kind of got together. I loved her and hoped for the best.
First 6 months she was already talking to some other guy, never turned down his advances. Then went into a relationship with another, which didn’t last long. Came back to me and I still accepted her. Things continued with the new guy for a while and I finally confronted her and we decided to part ways. For some reason still stayed in touch(common group of friends). 
Was always there to help her,even shared an apartment with her and shared rent when her best friend left her after 2 months living with her.

I was hopeful that things could work until I saw her texts on snapchat. She was again in a relationship with another guy from work. Turned out the same guy who received her at the airport when she came back from home, and went to his place for the night.
Still looked the other way for some reason and last year asked her to make a decision as I am getting older, she said “ I don’t see you as a partner, I don’t have feelings for you, I have cheated on you”. Shit broke me finally and I decided to move on. Meanwhile she got into relationship with some other guy from work, practically lived at his place and time to time told me that we were never meant to be,she never had feelings for me. She broke up with him too.

I Worked on myself, lifted my standards and met someone. We hit it off and got engaged last year. Ex got to know and is telling me if I could have waited more for her she could have married me because of how broken she is she doesn’t care who she is with and she always fried to work it out with me.

I am hell lot of confused what to do now. What do i tell my ex to do? Should i have waited for her to finally come to her senses?

I loved a girl and she talks to me also in a better way ..she knows I love her so much but she doesn't want to be in a relationship. And tht thing breaks me ..I tried my best to convince her but she refused and says it's better to be freinds 😔🥺
I feel so much depressed.

Depression

I'm seeing my life fall apart.
I've exams coming this Saturday 3rd of April and I did a horrible thing on 24th March.

I shouted on my girl, about she giving up her career and sitting home if she doesn't want to come back in afternoon for 2pm lecture, as we were left early at 11am, she felt it tiring to go home and comeback at 2 as it was sunny. I was rude on my tone, I know I apologized on 25th 26th 27th and today too. But things have got worse, its killing me inside, she ain't talking to me like before. I am giving her space and time to forgive me, I'm apologizing to her everytime. I even tell her that I miss her a lot, but there's no reciprocation of my feelings from her end. Its breaking my heart and I don't know what to do. She doesn't like gifts, she doesn't go out with me, she ignores my texts, and I'm sorry for my impulsive behavior, all I meant was I want her to be with me atleast during college hours as her family is strict and conservative, she cannot leave her house after 6pm. ;.; I'm sorry, but I don't know what else to do. I realized my mistake, after knowing her for the first time I had decided to not to hurt her feelings at all. I had promised myself not to hurt her ever after knowing her life. I failed. I could not even impress her and make her comfortable with me. Now whenever I see her in Parking or College, I make myself scarce around her and even around my friend circle to let her be with friends and me being with them might make things a little awkward or people might figure out about our relation. My hearts breaking and my life's falling apart Finals are coming next week. 


Sorry I cannot help ANYONE out on NOWandME

One Sided Love

I am feeling very depressed. Me and my girlfriend were so good and care about each other.. we were in relationship for the past 9 months we spent a lot of time together and we know about each other... she is very possessive to me And I too. we both belong to Christianity and she told that her parents would accept me as her husband and we planned a lot to be with eachother and complete the graduation in the same city. She used to care about me like my mother and i uesd to care about her soo much like her father. Her father passed away when she was 6 years old. And we made a lot of memories and a lot to say but i don't have much time to describe but yesterday when she said that "do we need love in this age" and I don't know what she's talking about.. she had gone to youth prayer in her church and they changed everyone's mind like loving is a wrong way like that. she was angry with me for 3 days I don't know why and she called Me last night and made me laugh and happy and I am happy too. When we end the conversation and about to sleep he texted me like that. I asked her "what would you do after breaking up with me ?"
She said I'll keep myself busy with studies. I said it's okay 
She didn't breakup with me but she said a point that if we both are made for each other..god will combine us. I agreed to her what she said. But the problem is when I heard breakup word from her mouth I didn't get a proper breathe I collapsed on my terrace once..I think I would have died. I don't understand the word breakup till now 
I know that meaning 
But I can't feel it...and I don't want to feel it.
And I don't how I am 

Isnt it Silly people can change in just 1 day. I had a crush someone and we were talking its been just a week. Actually was in love. I guess everyone have lied small silly things. And that person was into me too. Suddenly wen i just said a silly lie. The trust is broken . Now she is not into me like seriously Everything just goes away like that. 1 galti se Ke wagah se Silly mistake ke Wagah se pura Insan Galat hojata hai kya. What abt my feelings and all. She is 22 i am 28. Me immatured hu ya wo. Why the hell i got attached 

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