I feel like me and my bestfriend are slowly drifting apart. I feel kind of lonely. We don't talk the way we used to. I know things change and people grow, so it's a given that relationships changes too.  Knowing that doesn't make it any easier though. I'm happy that she's growing as a person, happy that she's making new friends, but is it wrong to feel a little sad too? 

change is the rule you know so dont worry everyone priorities get change with time so take time . its normal thing 

Lonely

It's like the wind is blowing so fast and the trees are rustling and the birds are chirping ...  The weather seems perfect yet u don't feel anything.. it's like there is a void inside of me ... Everything is dull ... Nothing seems nice

Exhausted

My boyfriend wants to have s*x but I am not ready what to say, he is vv experienced and it would be my first time I don't want to right now but he gets horny and says that not having s*x is hampers his health as masturbation is good for his health and he has to do that bc I wont have s*x with him. He has never forced me but wnv he asks and I say ik I feel guilt as he has an active s*x life now bc of me he is not able to have it and also gets vv tired after masterb***ng as we talk on call. He loves me and I know that but I don't think I love him utna such that I want to have sex with him. Sex is vv valuable experience for me and I don't wanna do it just like that. I understand all he wants is to feel me and that excess mast***** effects his health but what am I supposed to do ? If I have sex it will effect my mental health. 

Sexual Health

Its sad about how we keep valuing people who hardly care and throw those away who'd die for you. 

Life

I don't feel anything it's getting worse i really wanna feel alive but I can't i feel sad throughout the day and i don't know why i feel sad. Tbh since i wasn't feeling good i took a test called "15minutes4me" its kind of anxiety, depression and stress test. Its a quiz kinda thing. So i answered the questions and the results were not good. Stress was 59%, anxiety was 29%, depression was 76%. I kinda knew it. But to satisfy myself i thought this wasn't right. So a day after that i took 2 more depression test! They both gave the result as (extremely severe depression) and I can't see i psychiatrist because I'm only 15 and I can't tell my mom about this she won't take it serious and i don't wanna create it a big deal in my house because my board examination is just 15 days away. I can't concentrate on my studies I don't know what to do. And my mom thinks mujhe nazar lag gai h.

Anxiety

I feel bad for whatever I've done to people..
being traumatized myself, I've traumatized people with their emotions attached to me..and now i just feel sorry for meeting them, the way I met..i was not like this a long time back..i was happy i was full of hopes full of passion to do things, make my surrounding charismatic..and here I am now.. a fkn looser who just spreads sadness everywhere.. I am sorry to those people..I really am!

3am Thoughts

Vaanga pesalam 😶

Recently I had a fight with my friend and she said some harsh things and I am a pro overthinker, now things are normal she is talking very normally every thing is cool but I am stuck at those words like she said I am irritating her I don't know she meant those words or it just came out in other way I am getting those flashes of our fight although now everything is normal I am stuck at that and I don't know how to come out from that thoughts

Frustration

I like to smoke. It's like I know it's harmful but I don't want to stop. 

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