I feel like I'm getting distant, from my family. I don't want to be insensitive, I don't want to drive myself away, but I like spending time alone, I like to think alone and be with myself. My parents miss me. When I spend time with them, it's chill for some time but then it starts making me a bit uncomfortable because our views do not align. I don't know what to do, I feel really bad. 

Relationships

Anyone else constantly battle with OCD and intrusive thoughts ? I could use someone to talk to 

Anxiety

Hellow everyone I'm 18 and recently I noticed that I was not able to get proper erection ( I do get boner in night) I went to the doctor and he assured me that I am okay it's just that I'll get erection when I'll get physical with someone....but Deep down I'm still afraid and I got depression and because of which I developed insomnia (I can't sleep at all),.....I think that I'm not able to satisfy any girl and I won't be able to get married .... I'm very depressed and I want to talk to someone...plz help me

Adulting

How depression feels like is so difficult to put into words because it's a spectrum somedays I feel so bubbly and Jolly that I want to to save the world but the other days I do not have the courage to get out of the bed and even make a toast for myself it so difficult to do college knowing how depression feels like because you are constantly reminded of what you are and how incapable you are Reason to everyone else it so difficult to just be yourself because you are constantly doubting yourself because that how depression feels like, to not know who you are, to not know what you want, to not know who you want to be and do not know if the world around you is real or if this is the world you have created in your head because it happened with me in the past that I have thought the world is nice but it was just in my head and the world was really Cruel and this is how depression feels like and I don't know if I am doing justice while putting it your but I want everyone to know that it's difficult and that if there's any one else like me that you are not alone and just has the hope that it get it gets better???That was short but I am really just hoping that it does get better because I do not know how to continue like this???


Depression

Does screaming help?

Life

How about I just disappear...

I keep having this recurring feeling of worthlessness.. and it comes out of nowhere like I will be out having a good time and something will trigger a negative response so bad that I am immediately pulled in this never ending feeling of being unworthy, that people keep me in their life just for the sake of it, I am not good enough for anything and I don't deserve to be loved. Because if the constant fear of people eventually abandoning me one day, I feel like just leaving everyone and going somewhere far away. I have had suicidal thoughts in the past but I have made myself stronger than before. N for a decent amount of time I thought it was over. But there it was again yesterday when those negative emotions came rushing back all of a sudden making me feel like I am drowning into this never ending hole of self hate. 

have you ever feel not belong anywhere and wherever you try to fit in you just broke yourself even more?

Insecurity

I'm so fucking tired of living! I want to end it here and now! Will I have any regrets? Well only for words that I didn't said and for those times I wanted to scream but didn't... I don't have any purpose here, some of y'all can tell me that I will be happy or day or another bullshit but hey we both know that miracles aren't really promised. Why am I living? well I'm still here because I'm hoping... hoping that one day someone won't only tell me that I need to stay but I want them to come and pick me up from this hell so that I can finally live.. I MEAN REALLY FUCKING LIVING NOT ONLY EXISTING! I hate people.. why? because they can't shut the FUCK UP, they keep talking for what? what do they breathe?! I can't even hear my mom breathe since she traumatized me. Like seriously I AM SO FED UP WITH ALL THIS BULLSHIT AND THOSE STANDING SHIT THAT WE ALL CALL PEOPLE. What about the society? this word means nothing, people always want to categorize everything, people always want to control, they want power but no one will ever just shut their ass and lay their stupid ass ANYWHERE and simply take a breath. You are afraid of judgment? well so am I but no one cares, you can live in peace either way people don't give a fuck at all, you can also die as well people will only care to give a reaction but at the end of the end their life will keep going without you and the memories they had with you will slowly disappear when they will turn their back to return to their monotonous life.

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