I feel like I’m extremely dependent on my boyfriend. Although I know its absolutely wrong to shove that kinda responsibility on him to always be there. I’m in a long distance relationship and my boyfriend was here for 2 weeks. I haven’t had a single anxiety attack, I slept well, I ate well. He’s leaving back home today and I kept crying constantly, I kept having panic attacks, just thinking of not being able to be with him or near him scares the shit out of me and It’s horrible because I dont want to feel this way. I have a great job, too many things to divert me from this feeling but NOTHING works. I don’t want this feeling, I don’t like it. I feel like I have nothing to look Forward to anymore, I dont want to wake up because I know I cant see him later on that day. I hate this.
Drishti Gupta @drishtigupt...
Hii Keerthana. I can understand what you are going through. Sometimes some people have an affect on you really badly. It’s like everything that you do, you start doing from their perspective, and you start thinking if they will like it or not. We start revolving our days around them and start doing things for them. Everything becomes about them. We start giving them so much importance that we forget that we are important too. We get so attached and so involved that we stop focusing on ourselves.
I really think you should start spending time with yourself and do things that you love doing, by yourself. After a rough phase in my life, what made me get through things were :
1) Working out. Earphones in with good music in the gym feels like therapy.
2) Going to drink coffee alone or to have breakfast alone. It made me be in touch with myself.
3) Going to the mall alone for shopping or a movie but enjoying your own company
4) Expressing emotions really helps