I feel like i have a serious mood disorder. Any imputs on how i can deal with this?

Disorders

‍It was as if he had been walking asleep during his life, or as if he had already died but hadn't noticed it yet.

Life

It is now my determination to ensure that I am unconditionally happy with whatever situation I am in, and that I will not be defeated by life’s difficulties. 

Motivation

I've been having these weird things happen to me lately. I would be doing whatever and then my vision will start to turn fuzzy and white. Then my head starts to hurt a bit and I have these memories from the past that I couldn't remember or dreams I had forgotten. I can visually see them with my own eyes in the white static. I start to breathe heavily and feel like I'm going to pass out. Its also really hard for me to move when it happens. It last for a few seconds then goes away and I can't remember what happens after that has happened. Does anyone know what this is or have they experienced it before because I don't think its normal?

Dreams

Bro when tf is my college gonna open , imma cry now 🥲🤌🏻

3am Thoughts

Hello everyone what will read this thought process.
Most of the time I feel really bad and usually don't know why. Today I feel like a mess. I think I'm a loser, I can't do anything and feel like a burden for everyone. These feelings grow because I can't find a job and then I found it I can accept the offer, and I just don't know why, I just feel uneasy about it. And I feel really bad explaining this to parents or friends. Also, I'm so afraid not to find a job at all. 
So, I shared these emotions with my best friend and she reassured me that I just don't have to accept this job offer if I feel bad about it. And I know that nothing will happen if I don't accept this job offer, but I still so afraid of the future. 
So, sometimes I feel that I only want to sleep. 

Overthinking

*The **worst** thing you can do to **yourself** is to **avoid** the **harsh truths** and let those become **hard lessons**.* 😉

Mindfulness

I'm so annoying. I sing up here so I wouldn't annoy others with my stupid feelings but I still feel annoying.

Anxiety

My wife wants gold necklace because she think i she wore thin necklace. What should I do, I don't like spend money on jewelry. 

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