I feel like i cant trust anyone… besides my husband. But right now, he’s on the verge of a mental breakdown himself. I feel numb… I’ve honestly never felt this way. Not like I want to die, just no feelings at all. I find myself wanting to cry, but realizing I can’t.
We have recently gotten into a lawsuit with ‘friends’ who would not given us the title to a vehicle we paid for ($6k) then had to pay $3k for an attorney. At the same time, we find out my parents have been accessing our private accounts since 2019. We’re not sure their reasoning… but obviously I’m a Rollercoaster of emotions. And understandably, so is my husband. We have been together since 2013, all the while he has never really trusted them. We started a business with them that we grew to over $500k gross, let’s just say they offered us pennies on the dollar. We left the company and started our own, so we could save the relationships. They’ve manipulated me for so long, I was blind… and even still do and agree to things I don’t want to. I know they still have some sort of control over me. Somehow, they’re so good at what they do, they make you feel guilty. Or at least they still think they are. Honestly, nowadays, I just feel bad for them. I have 3 brothers and it’s obvious they feel differently about them too. They can see they aren’t the people they raised us to be. So many lies, not knowing our family history (whole other story). Over the years, memories have started to come back to me. The ‘pretty beautiful preacher’s daughter life’ wasn’t exactly how they tried to make me picture it in my mind. The amount of loneliness I felt as a little girl was unbearable. I’m finally starting to find myself–find confidence in myself. I know they are and have always held me back throughout my life. Constantly controlling my every move–who my friends were, who I talked to, who I was allowed to date. I was home-schooled and not allowed to attend school… I finally talked them into playing sports. I made the starting position in basketball on the middle school team, but this was only a way to control more. Any time I did anything wrong, I was grounded first from practice. I would lose my starting positions in many different sports, all the way through high school. I’m 30 years old and have seriously just realized what they are doing in the last few years. Yet i haven’t confronted them about it? It’s like I keep looking for the perfect evidence to make sure I’m confident. It’s like I’m so weak around them… I’m trying to change, but the triggers happen when I don’t want them to…
I needed to vent, but I’m feeling even stronger just being able to write this. The only person I have to talk to is my husband…
It will surely get better
It has to, seems to me it can’t get much worse 🤣🤞
Raj Chauhan @raj1403
The best part is that you and your husband are so close and tight.
I think you need to move at a place far from them and re-start life .
You and you husband appear to be very hard working.
May the gods bless you both.
Stay strong.
Don’t confront just distance yourself
You’re not the first to say this… and at first I did agree. However, we’ve built a great life for us here. We have a well-known food truck that continues to grow. I asked him if we could wait until we were financially ready to go somewhere, but yet i still agree with you. Maybe I’m just scared to leave everyone here… my 3 brothers, grandma, cousins, Uncle’s, aunts, etc. Just sucks they are like this. Sometimes I really feel like I’m in a dream and I’ll wake up and everything will be fine…
Raj Chauhan @raj1403
I don’t know what to say anymore and how to comfort you madam😣
If you have a nice growing food truck business then moving is not a good idea.
I think you really need to take help of a counsellor or start confronting those people.
I said not to confront as i didn’t want an emotional turmoil in your life.
Also as your husband is on verge of breakdown i wanted things to go easy.
You need to make them feel as if you are burdened financially. Make up or cook up false stories and tell them you are in dire need of money.
The best way to push people away is start asking them for financial help and they will ghost you pretty soon.
Although this isn’t happening in all cases as here families are involved.
Try to get help and please you husband shall be saved at all cost.
Looks like he is a gem and your biggest strength.
I will pray for you
Oh and the ‘aunts, Uncle’s and cousins’ are supposedly all adopted–hence the family history shit 🤣 yet we all resemble each other! 🤦♀️🤷♀️
Raj Chauhan @raj1403
Altogether one more reason to distance yourself.
I did reply to ur comment above but it’s not posted yet
