I feel like I can’t breath in this house. I said something I meant as a joke to my partner and now they are very hurt. We are both on the spectrum and I have severe ptsd. They haven’t spoken to me since I said it and I shut down and couldn’t apologize and they live with me. I can’t handle that I hurt them and I don’t know how to fix it. All I can do is shut down or cry or wish I wasn’t here. Them not talking to me is killing me, I was ignored and neglected all my life.
Bani Singh @banisinghvasir
I can understand how you’re feeling and how difficult it must be to apologise, because I feel and act the exact same way. Sometimes even when all I really want is to say sorry and move on, my voice somehow isn’t able to find the words. Or even when I’m very overwhelmed and want to thank the people I love, or just tell them I love them, it’s very hard for me. Maybe it’s not the same way for you, but what you can do is text/write to them. That somehow really helps me put my feelings into words. You can even write a letter on a piece of paper if you don’t want to just send them a text. I know it’s hard for you, but sometimes all the other person needs from us is to say something. So, don’t let the conversation die. ❤️