Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel like I can share my thoughts and feelings here without having anyone here judge me. From the last few days, I felt so alone and unwanted. There is no one I can talk to,who can check on me or care for me. It’s not like people don’t talk to me but there is something,like a special person who can see right through you. In that desperation I even messaged my ex which I know was a bad idea for him after breaking up with him first. I feel lost and selfish.