I feel like i am not upto anything serious in life and all my friends are really doing something or have acheived something

I think if we are giving a thought about it then we must be serious about our goals or want to achieve something in life. Don't think of them. We can do this and we will be doing it. Actually this happens to me too.. but we can't change anything unless we work. 

Adulting

I think I have no real friends, even being with them like 5 years...it feels so fake...does anyone feel the same

Recently my friend group cut me off, it’s been really hard, I try to talk to people but I just feel like I have no one, these were people I considered family for a few years and one day one of them just straight up told me “I don’t like you anymore” I was absolutely devastated, I had my flaws just like anyone but I always tried to do what was best for them and put them first, it’s just so hard because now I feel like I have absolutely no one and it crushes me because I was so close with one of them that they went on family vacation with me, I try to forget about them but I always see something that reminds me of past memories of them and then I fall back into sadness, we used to have sleepovers every weekend and talk every day and now we are strangers, although they weren’t blood related I truly felt like I lost 2 members of my family, I feel absolutely devastated and thank you to anyone who read this and heard me out

Depression

I don't really know where to start from about my problems, probably blaming others would be the best it always is, probably because we don't need to change ourselves when we blame others for the grim in our lives. My friends love to tell me things about myself that I kind of know but never feel like changing, mostly because of my lazy attitude, when I was in school I never thought it in a way that they should accept me like I am, it never bothered me, maybe for like 2 minutes or even less, eventually I started feeling they said those things to shut me up but obviously that never happened for more than 2 minutes, now when I think about it, it's almost like I was trying to invade their group. I never really knew how to make friends in school and even now I don't, we generally share moments with people, feeling the same thing as they do, when we do that unknowingly that's when we make real good friends and bond to some level, I was more like a person who knew the situation if it was sad, bad, happy (I actually hate being happy when everyone has a smile on their face just a default I guess) or whatever but always wanted to be a bit extra just to be cool I guess, I believe that was wrong by me to do, everyone felt the same way and I didn't let them share this moment, I find these things really cringy to be honest, sometimes I did it just to make them think I was different. Sometimes I feel I wasn't around people who were like me maybe I didn't know them very well and I didn't bother asking them when I noticed something about them, sometimes it was because I didn't want to bother them and other because I had this habit of hiding things because I lied, it's an easy answer to pass the question, eventually this lying became a habit because everyone sees it when you're hiding something, yeah so I was kind of a loner in their eyes. It's not like I don't talk to them now but I feel they should've told me that we know "you're hiding" or "you're clearly lying" to my face maybe not that you're hiding part because insecurities, but about lying. This really fucks with your mind, you start believing in those lies and create a person in your head, this just pushes you away from your friends and stops you from growing, to become a better version of yourself, now that I think about it I could have been so much better today if someone told me that and maybe help me change myself even a bit I would definitely have been less lazy and know how to deal with situations better, in which you're supposed to work and not give yourself excuses. That is the biggest problem in life today, being lazy and not doing something you're supposed to do and then later on getting depressed that you didn't do it, and then feel lonely because of all those things, that is definitely the wrong way to think about it but you get sick of yourself, it's like a vicious cycle that breaks you everyday from morning to night. I can tell these things to my friends who are around me now and I don't think they'll find it gay because if someone says it to me I'll definitely find it gay, maybe I need to show more empathy to people around me to get some but this empathy changes everything. At this point of time when I'm in my b.tech third year with a cgpa of 5.4 I don't think empathy is what I need from this world where people show empathy to people who don't have an unshakable will and purpose. I talk to some of my school friends sometimes so that helps and we have now and me obviously :)

Mental Health

My friends are so dull and for once I want to change the narration of my story and I really feel that something is off in my life and with whom I choose to become friends with, 2022 is coming and I want to cut those people OFF, they are not beneficial at all to my life and I'm tired of having to belittle myself to fit into their standards, I want to change something for the better. I saw a quote that says you are who you hangout with but I'm not this kind of person, my friends always tell me to stfu when I want to participate in something cuz I know how to talk English better than them but I worked hard for that and I still do. THEY DO NOT DESERVE ME but I don't know how to cut them, I don't want to be impolite or just rude to anyone but they didn't even do the minimum that I did to become who I am and I AM SATISFIED that I worked hard but I'm not satisfied with the people whom I'm friends with

Friends

I have so many friends but none to share my worries to.


Hi lol, this is my first time here. I am here because rn I'm having some friendship issues, and because I tend to keep things to myself, I didn't talk to anyone about this. So here goes nothing lol. What happened was I moved to a new school and made some friends. There aren't a lot of "groups" in this school because its a private school and there are only like 30 people per grade. I have a bunch of friends, which I will be giving fake names to help makes it more clear. So one "group" of friends that I hang out with is made up of me, Selena, Rachel, and Haylee. Then there are other people I'm friends with, and well call them Stephanie and Carol (carol is everybody else I'm friends with that are not as relevant to the story). So basically, I don't like hanging out with the "group" because they gossip a lot, and when they get mad at someone, they will talk about them behind their backs. Recently Haylee came to me and told me how she doesn't like hanging out with them as well, and she told me how they (Selena and Rachel) had gotten mad because I went to a party they were not invited to, and they thought I should have told them before going. I thought that was pretty dumb since I can make my own decisions, and they shouldn't have to approve of them because its not their decision to make. She also told me how they hate it when Haylee or I sit next to other people because apparently to them, that means that were tryhards and we want attention. The thing is when Haylee told me this, she started opening up to me and telling me her feelings, and I felt like we had a connection, and I was really happy that I wasn't the only one who doesn't like hanging out with them. Another reason I was happy was that at the beginning of the year, Haylee and Stephanie were friends since we were both new to this school. However, at the beginning of the year, I always felt like crap every day because it seemed to me as Haylee and Stephanie were bonding without me. I was always the one who would walk alone when the hall or road narrowed, They would always walk beside each other and talk, and I felt excluded because whenever I tried to join the conversation, they would sometimes not even respond. When Haylee opened up to me, I thought that that meant we were best friends and that she had always thought of me that way. Soon though, I began to feel the same thing that happened at the beginning of the year was happening again. Little note is that Haylee and Stephanie did start to drift apart a little but not so much. They soon became best friends again, and I was happy and all, but they seem to be doing the same stuff over and over again. And today, I wanted to sit in between them so that I can talk with both of them, but they both wanted to sit together and kept whining about it, so I had to sit beside all excluded and everything. I tried to get in their conversation, but I can't when they have their backs turned to me and when they don't seem to be listening at all. I'll make jokes about feeling excluded sometimes as a way to hint them kind of and as a way to make them laugh, but all they do is say "awww no it's not like that" and continue talking with each other, without me, like nothing ever happened. This makes me feel like crap and like I'm not a good friend. It hurts me, but I don't want to say anything to them because I feel like I sound clingy and like a drama queen, and so I don't know what to do. Pls tell me if I'm overreacting I'm not sure if I am and I don't want to end up opening up to them then being called a drama queen.

Relationships

Guys tell me how are the people in the real world. I am a teenager and I am often said that "you haven't seen the real world out there" by adults. I really want to know what kind of people are there in that "real world" that i haven't encountered yet. 

3am Thoughts

I love how people will talk to you as they support you but in an instant they'll talk about you behind your back and then come back to you like nothing happened....Like wtf, you think you can come back and act all normal as if nothing ever happened...yeaaaaaa no. I shouldn't have fake friends with fake smiles. I want fun, messy, honest, and crazy friends are who they say they are. I wanna make bad decisions and have you cut my hair because its hot and why not!?!?!?! I wanna sneak out late to go get food!!!! Anyone else with me....? 😞

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