I feel like I am becoming a worse person with each day passing after all hatred, anger issues, loneliness, irritation growing inside me and the worst part not having a single person to hear me after I lost almost all my close connection in these past years. 

It's like there's so many problems I've faced and I've to face on a daily basis which kinda making me crazy, I feel. 😩

I understand you....I'll be there for you if you allow me 

Anger Issues

I just feel empty……I shifted to a new place for the job all alone having hopes that the person I love is always there with me and he was…..just few days back something happened my past came up of having relation with the person he hated and he feels like I cheated him but that was way before than we met and created the bond we shared till now…….and he has left me all alone I was having him only by my side…..I spent my whole day in my room crying and praying to have him back 

Depression

Sometimes it feels like why always me. But sometimes we think it all happens because something good is coming. But its always same. Nothing changes. We must just go on like this......😔

Dreams

Looking for friends 🥺👀

Girlfriend

So I was this heartwarming show and the protagonist who has suffered a lot of toxicity by his previous boyfriend, ends up with a psychological problem. He then further, leaves that toxic boy and was able to find someone who really cares for him and loves him for who is he. His new boyfriend is not annoyed by his constant want to be sure of everything. I just kept thinking how lucky the protagonist is to find someone like his new boyfriend (well technically his life partner 😉) who takes him in sickness and health and is so open for towards his love for him
You know I completely blame the show for raising my standards for love. On a bit more serious note, I can’t help but feel so weird and alone. My sister has had boyfriend for 7 years, my crush has a girlfriend, my way older crush has a girlfriend and is living his best life in New York, my much previous crush has a girlfriend too, and all that. 
I just can’t help but think that, don’t we all deserve good things? 
I have had very rough couple of years and I just can’t help but spit at my luck. It has not been going well - personal, social, emotional, professional, health, money wise
I don’t know, I guess this is just the way I feel













3am Thoughts

There's a horrible feeling in my chest whenever something goes wrong. I always used to keep it in, not telling anyone because I hate showing anyone I'm vulnerable. My mom is supportive but I hate that she has to be strong even if it might devastate her. I feel almost always on edge, stressed, anxious, angry at myself for not being good enough. I always question if I deserve anything or anyone's support. I always compare myself to others, hating on myself. I cry it out and it gets better for a while, but that feeling never goes away. I think I need help, but don't know whats wrong with me. 

Anxiety

Extremely lonely and sad. Anyone there to text?

I've been feeling dreadful recently, my psychologist suddenly quit and now i have nobody to talk to. I havent talked to my parents in months because they signed 45 000 debt on my name and now im strugglung to pay. Im barely left with any miney every month. My bf broke up with me because he couldnt handle that i was having such a hard time accepting the situation my parents put me in. I constantly listen about what trash they are, that im probably the same, i cant take it. Ive been a loser all my lufe, constantly bullied, i couldnt stay at home bc my mom was constantly yelling at me, school was hell, i didnt have friends. Now im 21 and i couldnt even sign up for uni bc i pay off so much miney. I dont even feel like i have a future anymore. My ex bf, his parents are heloful and stick bg him, hes working for a massive game producing company, hes studying it, hes planning on moving to america, and his parents want to sell their apartment so that they could give him money to buy a house there. Hes barely 20. Whats left for my future? 45 000 levas to pay off, no idea what i want to study, but he tells me im either way not smart enough for a career. Im on pills from my psychiatrist, and ive had 2 scuicide attempts, im so tempted to take more pills i cant even... I just, i dont see a reason to live anymore... I dont have anyone, my future is tar black,  nothing makes me happy anymore... And nobody seems to be able to understand why. Theyre all '' it happens " or" Just accept it already. ". I loved this boy so much yet ive listened to him call me with such horrible names, telling me im a whore, iim trash, and whatnot. It hurts so bad. I ditched everything for him. Now ive nothing...

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