I feel incomplete from inside, though for society i am very much confident nd determined towards my goals but sometimes I get deflected nd all sudden I become a holy monk I think about life (in a competing marathon) where apparently we all want to win but best part is we donโt even know with whom we are competingโฆ nd when a person realises itโs too late.
It is possible to feel that way and have existential thoughts. However, if these thoughts are putting you down and making you feel upset, or de-motivated then it might be a good idea to either read more positive articles on these topics or perhaps speak to a therapist who caters this. While what you are saying is absolutely right, we all need something to keep up going, and if we start losing that, the more lost it makes us feel.