I feel empty and selfish and like a loser. I dont care about my friends and how their life ends up. I just want them to make me feel good. i want to have cool friends. I dont have hopes about future. I feel i am fated to fail and become that one person whom the world looks down upon. I was thrown out of my previous job because i suck at it and i am too cautious and overthinking everything about my current job. i feel i suck at everything. I am scared to take even a single step ahead in life cos i feel i will fail. I have tried to make myself better but i end up doing nothing. I dont put my thoughts to action. I am losing my hair and I am fat and ugly. I dont see point in life. But i am too scared to die.
I have graduated from one of the most prestigious professional exams which other ppl think is tough to crack but i feel i dont deserve it. That maybe it just happened because of god. I suck at my job and doing things practically. Basically i dont know how to lead my life.Why am i like this? I dont see the point in this post and that no one can actually help me but i am doing it anyways because i dunno what else to do.