I feel empty and lost somehow. I don't know what I'm feeling actually. I often experience numbness in thyself.
What is this 

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Gonna meet some friend after two weeks. It's giving me anxiety 🤧

Anxiety

Sometimes we are so into a person. Despite knowing they are not good for our souls; we give them more than they deserve. Deep down, we know someday they will break us so badly, but we repeatedly and intentionally ignore everything and every thought that goes against them. And one day, they show us why we shouldn't.🤧🙂

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For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours

March was a lot to process. Since last 1 year, I was struggling with my professional life and last week, I finally got the job I wanted, got 50% hike, one of the best companies but still I don't feel happy. My personal life is a mess. I have always been blamed that I don't communicate but whenever I do, I always end up losing that person. I was talking to this guy for marriage, every thing was good, magical, our engagement dates were almost finalised but one day out of no where he decides to end things without giving me any reason, any proper closure and he asked me he needs time and never texted or called after that day. I mean he can end things but atleast I deserve to know the reason! 

He got married today with other girl..

Need a slate. A slate where strangers don't transition into knights when I want to unclothe my thoughts. Nothing inappropriate, mind you. But definitely causing the world turn into an audience with unpatented authority. When I speak raw, I see the smirk. When I speak tears, you see my weakness. But dear child, how juvenile of you to think I cannot be capable of riding the emotions that is gifted to me in this one life? When I create a montage of days with the brightest hues and the array of long nights, why does my love for the quiet A.M. conversation stir the judgement in your eyes?my addiction may not always be societal, but your commitment to understanding languages ceases the minute my eyes shriek volumes of stories that is only audible to the ones who stay next to my growth? I am here, I am going to be staying here, right at the intersection of this fortress of claustrophobic happiness because it is not always how you think it is and I stand true to prove it wrong.

There are some days where I want to leave him so badly but I honestly don't know how I would make it on my own there's a lot more that goes into leaving someone when you've only dependent on one another for years and I don't know if I can be strong enough to truly do it but I'm tired of not being enough for him one day he's planning our wedding together and the next he's making secret Facebook profiles and messaging girls for sex just really brings down my self-esteem

Are guys into consensual non consent ? I crave such guys . Who actually know and understand it well . Leave your thoughts below 

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