I feel depressed. Like properly depressed. I have difficulty breathing, it feels like my lungs are about to burst. Watching Juice’s documentary made me feel sadder. I sometimes wonder what it’d be like to leave this world. I was always curious about life after death, but recently I’ve been thinking about it more than ever before. I can hear my mom listening to “Mistletoe and Wine”, since it’s Xmas week. Usually I’d be singing silently along with it, but now this just makes me annoyed. Perhaps I’ve sunk so deep to the point that I don’t wish to be not depressed. Don’t know if that makes sense though. Nothing makes sense these days anyway so I guess it’s fine. I’m trying to study, hopefully saying all this makes me feel better. Paper does have more patience than people after all.
Depression is real.it affects you so badly, people around you can’t understand. I also shared the same thoughts few years back. The person who can pull back you is yourself. Try doing something on which you stay concentrated. I had got immersed in studying. Also try meditation.
I try studying, but my mind keeps drifting off. I keep overthinking and waste my time. I’ve tried every way possible but it’s almost like I don’t want to get out of it. At the same time I do want to get out of it. Doesn’t make sense but that’s just how I feel.
I can understand, but you can only pull yourself up. Take a break, discover some activity. Talk with someone in your family and friends who you think will understand you.
That’s the problem, noone really understands me. I keep most of my thoughts to myself, and when it gets too heavy, I type all of it out on my notepad. Thanks for trying to help out, good to know someone cares.
i totally understand you, almost the same is happening with me ,u are atleast damp things on paper, i find it difficult to do so and i dont even have someone to talk to , therefore i talk to myself and try my best to figure out a solution when it is difficult to come to a conclusion i give it some time, i try to relax myself as much as possible, and think about it later on with a fresh mind. i dont know if it will help you or not but you can always try. i hope u r fine. pls be happy, for yourself atleast, <3