I feel depressed all the time. I have so much regret in my life that I keep on holding to it. I have no friends, no girlfriend (low self esteem, self confidence, doubt of my physical apperance), no one to share my feelings too. I am porn addict. I just got to know today that I missed my 2nd class honors in Engineering college just by 1 point. To get that GPA I worked my ass off for 4 years and didnt drop any subject in my semesters. I live in a country whose native langauge i cannot speak which makes it difficult for me to find job especially due to Covid. I dont know what am I doing with my life or what do I want to achieve. I have missed many career opportunities just because I am afraid to step out of my comfort zone. I wish I could get back in past and change the decision that I made (Btw I am extremely bad in taking decisions).
Idk what to suggest
But dark time will pass soon and then everything will be fine
Lyf is a phase of ups and downs
I get it but its hard to convince yourself when everything seems to go opposite the way you want it to. Still trying to hold myself together for some good. Thanks for the comment. Appreciate it
Look i hope it gets better…listen i used to be going through a similar phase…i was addicted to korean boy bands (it might sound weird but the addiction is no joke trust me😅)…i Was so addicted i wud spend all my money on getting their merch and personal info from stalkers i was a delusional fan…i lived in a country where pple spoke my language but i cudnt express myself that is why i turned to this addiction…u too are going through the same phase i am in med school and in the 3rd yr this was the case but then one night i was so jealous of my roommate who had everything and decided to be like her…so i deactivated all my social media and too it slow…u need patience nd time and u will understand that all this doesnt really matter when u want a happy life…about career sometimes u have to forget abt the bygones and focus on the brighter future u will get many in the future…just like the many u had but then u have to be patient…put in ur hardwork do ur side of the job and just wait for time to take its stance…also relationships are nothing speical they r just added problems…i hope this helps
