i feel bad right now, everyone says to just stay positive and follow your passions but i literally do not care. nothing matters to me, i have no passions or dreams. i like doing some things but they really only bring mild amusement for a little while. working towards a career or activity that I don’t care about is just exhausting, and trying to power through anyway makes me feel even more exhausted and spiral into depression. i don’t want to stay like this forever but it’s hard to get out when nothing matters to me.
Kavya Ganesh @kavyaganesh
Firstly, thanks for opening up about this. It shows that you want to change the way things are right now, and that’s a great first step.
I’ve been somewhere similar to where you are right now. Everything tends to feel meaningless, you lose interest in things that once made you feel excited, people don’t matter anymore either. I relate to that. It’s important that you know that it’s okay to feel this way.
I tried a lot of things - healthy and unhealthy. I’ve built up multiple coping mechanisms, but like the name suggests, it only helps you cope, doesn’t fix anything.
One of the things that helped me the most is reading books that challenged my belief systems. An example being The Courage To Be Disliked. Another thing that made a big difference is finding questions for my journal. It helped me connect with myself more and figure out what it is that I really want.
The best thing I can suggest is start reading this book/workbook: Cognitive Behavioural Therapy by Seth J. Gillihan. It’ll change your life.
Take care of yourself, and reply back if you wanna talk more. Toodles.