Brenda L. @brendaalicia12
I feel alone. And I guess I am alone. I have no boyfriend, no friends, family I do but they never reach out. It’s tough is all. The weather has been beautiful today but I couldn’t bring myself to leave my room. A guy I liked and dated for a short period of time posted on instagram and never followed me back or called like he said he would. A new guy that I am seeing never followed up about going kayaking. I have gotten no responses from Bumble BFF. I don’t speak to my older sister…I haven’t for almost 3 years now. I don’t have a relationship with my father anymore. He only calls me when he needs my help. My younger sister and I are not speaking. I bought tickets to see Bad Bunny the week of my birthday and I don’t really even like his music. She was supposed to fly in but when I FaceTimed her she was mean. I was going to plan out the week for us but I felt so hurt that I just called it off. I always show them love but they never reciprocate. I’ve brought it up before but nothing changes.
Maybe it’s all my fault. Maybe I’m unbearable. Or maybe it’s just life. If that’s the case then I don’t want it. I want to be traveling with friends and planning special dates. I want to be happy for longer than one month. I want to have support for longer than 3 months. Please don’t say just love yourself. That is bullshit. I love myself as much as I can. That doesn’t change that I have no one. I just needed to rant about how I’m feeling and have felt most of my life. Always an outcast. Always judged. Always left.
i know what you are going through, im going through the exact same thing with my family. Be strong you got this, Don’t be afraid to branch out to new people you never know strangers are normally kinder than the people you know. i wish i could personally DM you because this is exactly how i feel and i feel like we could be each others people.
Brenda L. @brendaalicia12
I’m sorry you’re also going through the same thing with your family. I’d love to connect to talk/learn more. I just joined in February and idk how to DM anyone. Any idea??
It is possible, i am still here if you would like to chat Brenda.
Hey there,
Its just hard to go through this stuff alone although knowing there are people but still being strangers .
This idea is crazy but many of them are facing this kind of bullshit…
You may try to fix it but can’t be the only one to do so… Right so
You can connect and talk if u have to rant all day
No prob and I think everyone deserves the happiness so its OK to ask for these …
Fight it
Its hard but you get it there…
