I feel alone and i feel as if i have no one to talk to. Anyone down to hear me out ? 

I'm always free. I'll wait for you. if u want to talk with me so, hehe


Of course, if you want we can talk here or you can DM on Instagram @alyssa_huyett (: 

Lonely

I will not be another flower, picked for my beauty and left to die. I will be wild, difficult to find, and impossible to forget.

- Erin Van Vuren

Poetry

I don’t want to feel left out by my mom because of my elder sister.. Is that too much to ask?!

Family

I feel so bad when I say something to my mum and she ignores it and she is always busy on phone with her friends and family. I have said many times this to her but no effect. I feel so sad and lonely as I have no friends. I have decided that from now on I won't talk to my mother about anything and would be as formal as possible. I hate human and family relations. They just make people weak and vulnerable. 

We tend to do what others like the most but forget that we are not born to follow. We are born to make our own destiny and rules. No one's gonna stay with us forever. In the end, it always depends upon our choice. People may or may not be happy but remember, sometimes you need to think for yourself. I get that as we grow older, we start acting like puppets to others' likes and dislikes. We follow around and work on others' expectations and it's left to you if you'd like to listen to people's judgement or not, but that shouldn't stop you from being or doing what you want. 

Motivation

Midlife crisis ain't good🙌

Life

Anyone from Mira road, Mumbai? Getting bored... let's catch up.....

Adulting

My friend n I was gone for shopping and I wore shorts to the place and I think my bro thought that it was not right attire for the shopping complex I mean what is wrong with that??? As long as I am comfortable...

Confusion

Aur me... Fir ek bar likhne baithi. Likhne baithi meri suljhi hui jindegi ki uljhi hui kahaniya. Wo kahaniya Jisme sab kuch sahi to tha, fir pata nahi kuch sahi kyu nahi. Jaha mujhe khush to hona chahiye tha par pata nahi me khush kyu nahi. Jaha thodi si khushiya, do pal ki muskan mere liye registan me pani sa tha. Aur sukoon... Sukoon to wo cotton candy jaisa tha, Jo ek pal ko he par dusre pal ko nahi. Mujhe nahi pata kab aur kaise... Mitti ki gudiya Dekh k muskurane wali wo me, ab muskurane k wajah
dhundne lagi thi...
Bin bat bak bak karne wali wo me, do labj bolne ko wajah mangne lagi
thi...
Bahar se dekho to sab sahi tha... Aur andar jhanko to itni uljhane, itne ganth... Jaise ki meri jindegi, meri jindegi nahi dadi k hat ka buna hua sweater ho.bahar se sulji hui aur Andar se uljhi hui ….

Me badi ho rahi thi. Adate, Shauk, sapne, jimmedariya sab badal rahe the. Ankho pe sajaya hua wo pyare pyare khwahise rato ko darane lage the. Palko me sajaya hua wo khwab ab bahut bhari hone lage the. Jindegi ab jine k liye nahi thi, wo to jimmedari ka dusra nam ban gaya tha.
Bolne jae to ab jindegi hi badal gaya tha....
Bachpan ka wo chanda mama, ab earth ka ek satellite ban gaya tha. Nani ki batayi hui pariyo ko "they are just myth" ka title mil chuka tha. Sapne ab sirf raat k neendo me hi nahi ate the aur na hi unpe ab sirf mera haq tha. Mere khwabo k age piche expectations aur dissapointment ka tag lag chuka tha. Mere liye hue har ek galat kadam "log kya kahenge" k taane se aksar takra k gujarne lagi thi…...
Ab ankho me wo masoomiyat nahi thi, sab pe wo bin sart wali bharosa nahi
thi. Ab mere dost k list me wo chhota sa puppy se le k wo 70 sal k uncle tak sab ka nam nahi tha. Ab festivals me wo excitement nahi thi. Ab sote wakt mumma lori nahi sunati thi. na khane ki jid se apne hato se nahi khilati thi .ab papa aksar naraj ho jaya karte the . vagwan k samne hath jod k ab wo masoom duae nahi mangti thi ..
Ab ye pata chal chuka tha dard sirf Gir k chot lagne se nahi hota, yaha dil bhi tuta karte he. Aur bura to us din sabse jyada laga tha jab pata chala tha dhoka aksar apne hi dete he..

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