I feel a peace that feels real but why do I not trust it. Almost like how can I be feeling this with what is happening in my life, how is this possible after losing my wife to jail, custody of my 5 kids, house, job, friends, hobbies. Everything externally has changed but here I am somehow ok, I do not understand. 😶
Its that you survived. You survived the hard times. That’s what happened. You may not be able to recognize it, but you did.