I failed already. 2022 is already starting with my arm hurting like a fucking bitch because of my skin not healing... I feel like I’m already drifting away from my bsf for no damn reason.. I wanna cry but I don’t want to do it again. I want to kill myself but not really because I probably want to kill something inside me...

Thank you! I’ll do my absolute best💕 I already started doing more productive stuff to get my mind off of some thoughts. 

Self Harm

I once shouted “jinne mera dil luteya” and my mates shouted “ohho” in classroom 

And whole classroom laughed alot

School days 🥲

3am Thoughts

Yesterday, I met with a SDO (Sub divisional officer of district bulandshahr) in my friend marriage. Surprisingly, He tried to steal my phone after getting me fully drunk while we were drinking. When I called on my number by another person mobile. My phone rang in the hand of SDO.

And after a bug smile. He returned my phone. I am surprised and confused whether he was trying to steal my phone or kidding with me.

But luckily, I got my phone and enjoyed the night while drinking till 3 am.

Friends

In the middle of the preparation for CAT. I feel so anxious and scared about achieving the target I set for myself. Wondering if even I can achieve it. Not asking anything just ranting out how I feel bcz I don’t think no one around me are going to take this seriously.

Education

Why every time I mess up things...

I don't know about the assignment and they didn't brief me and I end up messing it up and now they are mad at me but I told them that I didn't know a single thing about it and before that they didn't asked. I tried to make up for the mess but they are so mad at me that they want to make me feel bad about it every single day and I just keep saying sorry

What should I do for a mistake
It's a new job and it's hardly 5 days and a complete different background, it's natural to take time to settle, to observe to make things happen. Why people are so harsh or because I am new they have a opportunity to bully me.

Things are not the way i want them to be. Its like they are not in my control. Everyone is so selfish, only caring about their own needs. Should i try to have my way?
How do i do it?
Is it my ignorance or my laziness or am i just incapable to get what i want?

Frustration

I just seem to feel hurt again. I think I just repeat the history again. I love a girl. But it doesn't seem like we can't get along with each other at all. Now I feel hurt so bad.

Relationships

How do you know it's real love and not limerance??

Girlfriend

I'll keep one blank page
incase you come back :)

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