I am here to listen. Whosoever made you feel hurt, they couldn’t understand you, and it’s okay - we all have our biases, judgements, baggage, conditioning, patterns of behavior. I know it bothers us because we want to be understood and be seen. You can tell me, and I’ll only listen with compassion.
First of all thanks for telling that you want to listen and someone is there to listen and understand you bcz always I have taken for granted, ignored, the thing is it’s been years now in college I was very silent , i was not talking to anyone I don’t know why , I was always sitting alone , even if I went I talk to someone they will be ignoring me ,if I don’t talk they will talk behind why she’s not talking ,and I didn’t even care , as well as that I scored very less marks , and I didn’t even had friends that time and even now I don’t have friends, after that in further universi, I had fight with few people where there is no fault of me and then after that they manipulate others to avoid me , talking behind my back , telling wrong things about me, even most of them really believe that and treated you badly when there is not fault , they don’t want to listen your side of story and want to judge you simply someone told about you, it was really hurtful when there was no one side you but still I was very strong and handled myself back then which was few years ago, by this if I wanted to talk to someone in college or if someone talk to me also I have avoided everyone that they think like that about me and bcz I don’t want to get hurt anymore when someone leave me again if they stay others and back talking about me , so the people who wants to talk to me also sided and think that I am arrogant , and by that my studies where you need help of some questions , details of it no one used to tell me, also being short, not good enough , people will not talk to you also , they will ignore you like anything , but still you have handled you so much strong , even though when you don’t talk to them they give weird expression when you see them , talking shit about you still they will not stop, so that upto now I don’t have any friends ,either I don’t even need those kind of friends, but thing is why I have been suffered this much when I deserved the best but still treated like anything and whatever you do want to do good to it gets reversed and nothing works out , so these people didn’t even think to listen my side of story just judged me and I have gone through alot few years back , I have been getting thoughts about these past things and am unable to forget it and it’s getting really bad and by these I had no friends till now , ihave become very silent as no one understands me ,why ? also that’s why my studies have been went not good that much as I there will many things answers are with when they don’t give me and say that I don’t have like that but still they will be having it. Why I have been gone through som much when I deserved best , and also people only talk to you when you doing good , fair, if you are short , not fair then you will be treated as nothing still those people exists, so there is sad only always , even parents sometimes tell and critize you that you don’t have friends right but they don’t know what you have going through for years and it’s unable to forget and once it will deep down go into depression one day , being an introvert and extrovert accordingly , also by shyness I could not able to talk to others or participate in some programs which I wanted to , so that I regret it and those and many things which I have gone through is coming in my mind daily and I am suffering it alone and it’s like hell why me ? Why even though I did good to others , why I have gone through this much sorrow, and even I didn’t want to explain my side myself when they think I am wrong , bcz they don’t want to listen at all and always misunderstood you,but still you have been strong for these years , and could not forget what and all you have gone through alone and silently ,at times you have raised your voice at them and shown their position to them but still those will change stil tell lies about you to others to treat to like that and people do that , and many such things I have seen these years and it’s really hurtful, … and still all those years I don’t have friends but I don’t regret it as I didn’t done anything and I have my back.
