I don’t why ppl always have a reason to bully me. I mean somebody comments on my teenage skin problems they call out me with very disgusting name which affects me alot and some made fun of my name that her name is not good and some they my teeth are weird I was never so insecure about me about now I have developed alot of self doubts. I was bullied in my high school left alone with no friends n bullies followed me everywhere to my tuitions and social media n they continuously commented very inappropriate comments about me. Not only this even in my family ppl hate me n feels I am so unwanted cause I’m a girl child no one supports me at times I feel so lonely n suicidal I even tired many times to quit my life but all my attempts were failed n when my parents came to know about it they blamed me , put restrictions on me in the worst scenarios they beat me like a shit and they never heard about my problems for them mental health issue is something which doesn’t exist they think I use all the issues as an excuse to escape. Cause for they I’m an unwanted n a troubled kid they never loved n cared me they only blames and beat me up whenever I speak about anything. It’s like I’m a person with no family n friends I’m all alone n ppl who r there just made my life miserable that I have developed trust issues,self doubts ,and low self esteem
I don’t know why life been so unfair to me invidually I been through child sexual abuse as well n that also by the ppl who were like close relatives n I can’t talk about them to others n I have to face them with fear cause I get traumatized by meeting them sad thing is they r living freely . I’m not confident enough to stand for self against my bullies and ppl who abused me cause I don’t have enough courage I’m too weak emotionally and mentally. I been suffering alot from this specially past few days that I haven’t slept properly I have been all insomniac, depressed n even I got panic attacks that why I thought to speak about it cause I seriously want a solution I can’t bear this much of pain anymore. I seriously want to end everything or want to live peacefully but both the things seems difficult for me to figure out with a this mental health and toxic environment.
Just came to see if I can find someone with whom I can totally vibe with!
Thanx for ur concerns.
Thanx alot ur words have seriously been a great inspiration for me to improve for better n stand for my self. U made me feel that I should start to see the world differently I seriously gonna try my best to overcome my insecurities thanx alot for motivating me with ur words n I seriously gonna remember the reason u gave me to become stronger I always gonna remember the lesson I learned today that,’ world is a oyester that is making me a pearl ’ seriously I’m very grateful for u that u took out ur valuable time to read about my problems n for genuinely guiding me. 😄
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Naina Talwar @no_one8
Listen girl. Don’t worry, you’re not alone. Even I’ve been through it,even worse than it and I’m still going through it. It’s just that we need to be strong and rise up. First of all,learn to love yourself. Once you start loving yourself, other people’s words won’t even enter into your ears. Love yourself as who you are,there’s nothing to be insecure about our own selves,all of us are different. Moreover, you said that you’ve been a victim of sexual abuse, how recent was it? Did you inform it to anyone? I know that right now,you can’t trust anyone with whom you can share it. They may backfire you. And as you said that those culprits are living freely and that you feel unsafe and scared,you can call the child helpline number and report it to them. You’ll get the no on google. In case you don’t get, comment me here,I’ll provide it to you. Furthermore,you said that because of all these,you’re getting depressed, insomniac and are getting frequent panic attacks, so it would be better that you consult a therapist. Please try to convince your parents about it,as it would trouble you later if you don’t heal it now. Wish you good luck. Hope that everything would be fine with you. Lots of strength and love to you😇
