I don’t want to feel left out by my mom because of my elder sister… Is that too much to ask?!
Maybe… Maybe not… Because once my sister comes in scenario its always about her and now about her husband too… My choices don’t matter… I don’t get a say in numerous things/decisions mind u when those decisions are made for me… The things that my sister did wrong in her life because of that I don’t even get to pursue my dreams… Idk I just don’t feel I matter as a person in my family in-front of my sister… It has and will always be her
Idk what’s wrong with being a little kid as u said… and fyi i don’t want everyone to love me because i understand not everyone can be so giving… here it is damaging me from inside… give me anxiety by being always compared to my sister and how she is always good with all the stuff she has done… in the past years i was not able to pursue what i wanted, had to go to job in the city my sister felt was good instead it not having opportunities that would make ne build my career… so maybe i am a little kid who needs just a little attention from my mother and not always be overshadowed by my sister
Maybe she had her own set of problems growing up but atleast she didn’t had any elder sibling to be dominated by or be compared with… She got the chances to make her decisions… and regarding the benchmarks if i follow her steps my life will be ruined within next few hour because being the younger one i was the one setting benchmarks either it be school, college… still i get overshadowed by her… I feel my life has no meaning no matter how much I do
I don’t want to drag my mom in our sibling issues as well but the thing here is I am very much independent… i have my own living space… i earn my own wages… and i have created a sufficient life for myself to answer u but the thing is I always seek my mom’s permission before taking any step… i want my mom’s opinions and not my sisters… Everytime I ask my mother about a decision i want to make she outshines what my sister has done no matter if i want to be out of my skin just once its always she is better and then I just need validation from my mother and not my sister is all…