I don't want this night to pass because tomorrow I have Presentation and I am really nervous about it. 

If you think you can complete it overnight then go ahead but if you can't then just don't take stress about it atleast don't spoil your sleep 

Lluvia

Career

What is that one thing that you don't like about this Now&Me platform? 

Now&Me Feedback

Litteraly spamming shit on here cause my emotionally lonely a$s have nothing to talk to. Sad..

Lonely

Actually I m not god today .I m a very moody person and at first I didn't hv any problem wid it but as I started to grow up I became more grumpy n moody .Honestly I m nice person but den most of f ppl started sayin I always hv dis frown on my face , am I not happy n when dis thing became large it started to piss me of n I  started to feel like it's not correct so I decided to chng dis thing ,to smile more ,to not be moody .But it hurts when nobody knows dat u r tryin ur best not be like dis still in an argument they use dis against u . They say u r always irriated ,frown n shit. I m tryin okay I m tryin pls just don't say it agn n agn . And today I had an argument wid my mom n she was like tuj me dimaak nhi h ,tuje baatein smj nhi aati , don't evr argue wid ur dad like dis agn . She doesn't know I felt bad after arguing wid my dad but she always think muje toh kuch smj hi nhi aata. I hv done a lot of dumb things in d past  n made some unhealthy choices n coz of dat I m not very confident n I still think dat ppl r ryt ,my mom is ryt n I m actually dumb .But I try so hard not to believe dis coz it's hurts . I m not dumb n ik I m naive but I m tryin to make a chng in my personality ,I m tryin not be trust ppl easily ,I m tryin not to repeat my past mistakes ,I m tryin but it's hurts whn u r tryin n some just keep on rubbin d same shit in ur face .Making u remember all d things u r tryin to forget .

Overthinking

Tum pyaar ki baat karte ho
Aur pyaar se baat bhi nhi karte. :')

3am Thoughts

My parents are emotionally unavailable to me.. n I keep attracting same kind of people in my life specially love life

Conflict

Why does my anxiety get worse in hot weather and get better in colder climates?

Anxiety

People are getting friends with benef.
And here I am not even able to make a single friend 😭

Ive had it with my family, I am so done. My mom is toxic, unsupportive, controlling… idk just everything. Although she is also sweet, chill and home all day for her kids… Anyways today, we just got out a church and I wanted a snow cone, and she was like “sure, but lets go dress shopping for you for your graduation day” (Im graduating high school in June) and I told her I didn’t really feel like it but she made me get down anyway. I dont like shopping with my mom, I literally get anxious and Ive been like that since childhood because every time we do shop, she gives me hell. So were looking for dresses, or more \she’s looking for dresses because everything i show her is not to HER liking, “that dress makes you look to skinny” “that dress is too short you will look slutty” “that dress doesn’t match the occasion” “that is TOO much f--king money!”… So she basically just lets me try on what SHE thinks is good for me… and to no suprise, none of the dresses fit me because I am severely underweight for a 18 year old… Im underweight because my body is just built like that… But its always been hard trying to find something I dont look like a starving bitch in which adds stress. Anyways, the worker (who is a little older than me) hands me these nice dressy pants, which actually fit me. Its the only thing Ive liked so far, and my mom goes “Im not spending 50 f--king dollars on some PANTS, you are wearing a dress!!” and the worker says a lot of girls wear pants to graduation, but my mother ignored her. My mom then kept handing me dresses that I didnt want to try on so I got overwhelmed and  walked out the store and waited in the truck. When she got to the truck a few minutes later she started yelling at me, talm about 'You embarrassed the fck out of me! How am i ever supposed to go back in that store again?? Now your not getting sh-t for graduation". But its not like she was gonna actually buy me anything anyway… Lmao I got sad, I didnt want to go to the store I just wanted my snow cone :( but my mom is so unfair, she makes so many things a negative experience for me, and everything is about what SHE wants, she micromanages the crap out of me. She rarely even spends money on me anyways and the only expensive dress shes ever gotten me was for my 15th birthday… and I didnt even want a dress I wanted pants. And im going crazy thinking about how Im STILL gonna be living here for college. Im losing my mind

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