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I donโ€™t trust people because I just donโ€™t understand why would someone, some stranger who barely knows me want to know me or understand me or help me or love and care for me. I mean my own parents have never trusted me or loved me, all they did was convince me that I am the worst Mistake of their life and a Burden so why the fuck would a stranger want to love me, like MEโ€ฆ? Bullshit right? I mean even the expectation of it is nonsense right? Like why? I push away people too much & too fast every time I feel like I have revealed too much about myself. Because I just feel like no one will like me the moment they will know the real me because I am being my own self at home and my parents donโ€™t love me and say that I am a mistake and treat me like I am burden to them, so if I reveal myself, my real self, others will think same, and I donโ€™t want to be a burden and a mistake and a bad luck for others too, I mean I donโ€™t wanna ruin their life too, so I am just scared and yeah, I donโ€™t think I deserve to be loved or understood, I think I donโ€™t deserve anything good because my parents say I am a mistake and I have heard it so much to the point where I too believe it now. So I just automatically seem to cut off people and run away from people when they come close or start to know me more than they should know or when j start to reveal myself, I feel so uncomfortable and uneasy that I just run away and do not trust anyone because how can I trust them and why should I trust them and why would they want to know a person like me? And love me? And want to know me? No one wants me! And if someone is saying that they want me or be my friend and love me or be there for me then that surely is a lie because how can anyone ever even want me? What am I? I am nothing. I am nobody. Nothing special at all. Just no one. My existence doesnโ€™t even matter so how can someone come and say that it matters and I am special? How can I be special and deserving of love & trust? Do I deserve it? Really? Idk. I was being and I still am being told that no one would ever want a person like me tho?!

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Mx Shay @sxkurxchxn

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Hey, So think your parents have made you feel like youโ€™re worthlessโ€ฆ but no one really is worthless if you think about it, there must be someone who cares about you or means something to you
I think what you need to do is -
1) Donโ€™t let what your parents say get to you
their perception of you doesnโ€™t define who you truly are
Think about the reason they might have told you that they hate you, is it reasonable? is it justified? or is it an expectation that you arenโ€™t able to reach?
2) Push intrusive thoughts away
When you have thoughts like โ€œIโ€™m worthlessโ€ or โ€œNo one loves meโ€, push those thoughts away, because these thoughts are there because of your parentโ€™s perception of you and their perception define who you are
3) Take time to love yourself
You donโ€™t have to love every aspect of yourselfโ€ฆ but you should take time to accept who you are and realize that you are a worthy of love. After all, Youโ€™re a human being (i think) and all human beings deserve love, kindness, etc
4) Find someone who likes you for you
Find a friend, and just hang out casually and if you happen to trust them, you can tell them stuff if you want
if you notice yourself pushing the person away, stop yourself and thinkโ€ฆ Is this really worth losing someone? is it worth pushing someone away? whatโ€™s the worst thing that can happen if i dont push this person away?

It will be hard, but please donโ€™t give up and let this take over you, just hang in there.
you may not believe me when i say this butโ€ฆ I care about you, even though iโ€™m just some stranger on the internet, I do care about your well being and i think you deserve lost and trust, you donโ€™t and I wish you well :)

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Thank you so much! Thank you๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’•

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Mx Shay @sxkurxchxn

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No problem :)

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Anonymous
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Hey hey,take chill pill.
You know youโ€™re wanted and loved and craved.

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Anonymous
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Really? Umm thanksโ€ฆ

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Idk if I am over reacting or desperate for someone to rescue me or just utter nonsense but I feel like itโ€™s all my fault. So your words seem so strange to me like no one has ever told me these things. Idk how to respond to it.

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Dude I think u r over reaction things n exaggerating things, by what h said it says u r getting to emotional and desperate for someone to like u love u care for u but bud u donโ€™t have to be like this and also if u talk abut someone caring Loveing u it goes vice a versa even if u would love like someone he she would be a total stranger y would u care love like respect someone who is a stranger to u its simple how i connect how u bond to them, dude donโ€™t let anyy believe nor i should believe that u r not worth u r worth more n more that u can even think of
Just hold ur focus n be strong some day someone will come that will make u feel worth more than anything that day u would understand what im trying to tell u

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