I don’t think I’m going to make it through March. I get flashbacks of everything I did that caused me to be in this postion. I’m so depressed and I don’t have anyone in my life. My parents blame it on hormones because I’m 14 but I can’t do this anymore March is such a hard month for me. I try so hard to be happy and pretend nothing happened over those horrible 3 years but I can’t anymore it’s too much to handle. I feel like I’m suffocating. I’ve tried everything even professional help but nothing helps. I don’t think I’ll even make it out of highschool and honestly I hope I don’t. It would be so much easier to not be alive anymore I won’t have to suffer. I don’t care anymore I just want the pain to stop. I want my parents to be proud of me and love me without needing something in return. I want to have good grades, go to college, get a good job. I want to get married. I just want to be happy but it’s so hard when you are constantly being suffocted and pressured to not mess up everything. I can’t handle the pain of the memories he caused me. I can’t forget him and it haunts me everyday I’m so tired. I think I’m giving up I just can’t do this anymore. I don’t want help I just want to let go and go peacefully.
Ahmed Khan @iosdev
March is my birthday month, pls choose some other month or don’t choose at all. :/
You have problems, I get it. But dying? Giving up on so much you could achieve? Giving up on YOURSELF? Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re just a kid. You’re allowed to make mistakes. Forgive yourself and move on. F#k that guy. I swear on my parents life, God loves you. Pls do the right thing and turn the wheels on your life. Be kind to yourself. YOLO.
If people only lived for themselves, they wouldn’t live long. All of us live for people we care about.
