I don't think I love anyone, I just love their attention but if someone new comes I will totally forget about the other one. 

3am Thoughts

Tonight I told myself that this rock wont stop me. I am on a mission and I have been through enough strife. This world will be on the receiving end of my energy until I die. My workflow will be how my revenge takes shape in this world purely from my hatred. At least I can help propel the lives of hours while I rack up worthless currency in this void we call home. Love to me is only a feeling that has proven itself a waste. Asexuality on this path makes the burden so much less for me. Connect and chat or something in the comments. Okay?

Why being black is crime ?
People born other than fair skin colour have made any mistake.
Since my childhood I'm hearing things about sink colour. My grandmother asked me to apply many DIY's so that I would become fairer. If I go to any family function, relatives said to me like u didn't got ur mom colour. During my high school my father prepared something which he has seen on newspaper and asked me to apply on my face even it's burning. I have joined hostel after my high school then these things I used to hear from people when I came for vacation. Now I have reached my age where my parents started searching guy. Now everytime I started hearing things from my parents that I need to do something about my skin colour because no one is interested to marry dark skin colour.
One incident which I never forget which happened recently. My cousin got married and her mother in law seen my mother and asked her to introduce me to her when she visited my cousin home. When I went there after seeing me she stopped smiling and didn't talked much and I got to know that she don't like dark skin tone . Even my cousin family is obsessed with white colour. A new born was born into their family and after days passing his skin colour is changing to colour which is not fairer then they started saying things like. He is changing black colour, his in laws won't like and he didn't got their family colour.
Why people obsessed over fair colour? Person who is not fairer is not a human?

Anger Issues

Whenever I hear stories about how supportive and encouraging my friend's parents are I feel so jealous. One of my friend says that her mother is like her best friend. It hurts a lot. My parents were emotionally aloof and always left me when I needed them the most. My father works outside and my mother is housewife. I am struggling mentally but once again both of them left me alone in this darkness. Worst part is they knows that I'm struggling but still chooses to ignore. I don't know what I was expecting. Every time I hoped that something different will happen like a hug or a pat on the back or we will sit and talk and laugh but I guess everything will always remain just a dream for me.  I guess I will have to walk alone through this darkness. I'm scared but I hope that someday I'll make it.

Depression

wtf is this life for? i didnt ask for this!! just because 2 fuking gases or molecules or whatever decided to mix up, i am born!! how insaneeeee! what's the purpose of this life? what is the thing with soul and shit? help me someone, it's breaking my head!! why the heck am i alive!?

Life

I was contemplating and tracing back why I had such a stupid/confusing dream. Maybe the reason why Denvert was on that dream is because he was brought up by this Catanduanes friend in our chats yesterday while I was asking if they were okay (TD Paeng). I didn't expect it to be him because I know it's Carlo. The fact that we're going to meet his family. But when I look at the guy, it's Denvert. I was so shock I started to panic. I can't get away from the dream because I was being introduced to her Ate and this time they seem to like me. The setting changed and it's on our house. On the balcony near the gate and the railings are ruined like how I mentioned to Carlo. And now as per checking, the walls separating our house from the vacant lot was ruined as well. Then there's my Titas, Titos, Lola, and Mama. Before they even meet Denvert he told us he'd be right back. After a while the clouds were dark and the wind is blowing you can even hear it whistle, then there's brownout. It was a bit later when Mama asked where he is and if he would be back.

I panicked because it was not Carlo and I don't want to tell him abt this or how I wish I forgot it when I wake up but the dream is so vivid. Thank God I wake up and the first thing I did was to open my data (it's still brownout here as of this writing), saw his chat if I'm already awake and told him that dream. I was sighing nonstop. It was not a  sigh of relief, disappointment, tiredness or irritation. I don't know what it was. I just wanted to get out of there and run into him. 

Then I thought, maybe he (Denvert) was so mad at me before he cursed me like how Ate B is cursing his ex and that's why this kind of thing keeps on happening. 

I still don't know how could that happen and why it happened. We were okay. We stayed late because sleep passed through. Then this happened.

Boyfriend

soo lemon juice is used for invisible ink and a man robbed a bank thinking he was invisible 

Does anybody know workouts to..cut the flab? Or at least lose more than 6 pounds in less than a month? If I have to do it the long way I will, but I just need workout suggestions. After I sculpt my body I can make peace with myself. Btw I’m (13, female) and I can’t go on a diet because my mom would be upset at it. And there’s no really healthy stuff so I would have to cut back on carbs.

Happy

Hii 👋 how do we memories any concept or anything really fast 

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