I don't talk much to anyone but when loneliness is at dangerous level then I feel helpless and try to talk many things but when I think with whom to talk then my mind declares me as selfish and my mind gets spoiled. I am alone today  There is really no one around. Inside as well as outside. Worrines, fear, anger, darkness is increasing in life. I feel like my life will be spent in darkness. Patience and courage loses seeing people shining around. I have forgotten to fight, now there is only depression and  hopelessness.

Honestly there is lot of things in my mind but I don't know what will I talk to you.

I'm listening music right now. but I'm in a bus so I don't have any pen or paper.

will reach there 7 in the morning or scenery ke naam par pura andhera hai yaha.

extremely sorry for that. I'm appreciating your suggestions that you suggested me. someday I'll definitely book a session with you 

Lonely

Good Night.

Other

100 Dard Hain 🥺

Mood Disorder

TBT when I shipped Sherlock and John like a ship shipping ship and ran a Sherlock account and had thousands of followers and was even mentioned in The 2nd ever Dashcon by my followers and edited fanfictions on my laptop like a little nerd, because by golly was I a fangirl. I miss her and her passion for things and life.

Happy

Hey guys, 
I don't know how to say, I'm just a normal guy who struggle daily to day spent well. I'm always in fear, no matter, how things are bigger or smaller, how it'll go, where is my fault. 
From childhood, I was just tried to get an approval for each and every single smaller things from my parents. Then at small age, responsibilities of family on my shoulder. actually, i forgot, how to enjoy, how to talk nicely with people, i barely talk to peoples. I don't have left any intrest in any kinds of things. 
Specially, I can't trust myself. 
I know very well, if i want, I will do this work very precisely right. But in my mind, i always think, "no buddy, just think, if i fail, what should u do, what will happen. " 
Guys, if u get slightly hint, plz, reply me with ur thoughts.

Anxiety

Anyone wants to share their song playlist on youtube???

Music

I am really anxious about my results i had been crying all day...i hope i will get good marks

Imagine if we ever be able to communicate with god with very advanced technologies millions of years later in future and we ask him/her/they/whatever : why you created this world? And god replied: Aise hi, se_y lag rha tha!!

Life

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I don't know what's going on. I try to study and I can't. My sister even made a schedule for me which was so easy to follow, but better said than done, right? It's been a month since I last attended my tuition classes. I don't know what's going on. My school will reopen on the 2nd and I haven't completed my only 2 projects yet. I just wake up at 12ish, eat, read something on Tumblr, do something for the sake of 'chores', eat my dinner and then either sleep or read something on Tumblr again. It's been like this for the past few days. I don't feel like living anymore. I have completely ignored Instagram, my only social besides Tumblr. There are several texts from my best friend and some of my friends. My notes aren't complete. I haven't studied for the tests that are in a week. Because of the rescheduling of the tuition into online classes, my teacher forgot to add me to the Chemistry group and it has been a month since I attended any of the classes in Chemistry. I don't even have the notes of it. Neither do I have the courage to tell him to add me cause he will pounce upon me and will continue to tell me that I won't make it. Everybody is continuously taunting me about my weight or my hair or anything. 

I just want to sleep and never wake up again. I just want someone to just pull me into the mirror world when no one is looking. I just want someone to kill me and get away with it.

Too lazy to write a proper conclusion,
Mochi💚

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