I don't smoke, drink, or party every weekend. I don't play around or start drama to get attention. Yes, we do still exist!



But you post I'm different I'm unique we do exist stuff. yess, you still exist 🙄

It's not only you who don't smoke drink or prty, there are so many people around who don't do anything!
It's all personal choice, not a big deal, why to feel so much special/unique on this!🤦🏻‍♂️

Career

First thought here ever. I’m not sure why I’m even doing this but here goes. I feel people suffer from much bigger problems so I shouldn’t complain. But I feel lonely. And I feel ashamed to admit it to my friends. Or family. I’m never the best person when it comes to maintaining friendships so I guess it’s really my fault right? I haven’t done anything wrong but I’ve just drifted. A small set of friends everywhere I go is what I’ve always had and I’ve drifted from most. I don’t know how to start being closer to all my friends because it’s not like how it used to be. And I don’t know if they care anymore either. We’re all on very good terms, they probably don’t know I have problems or FOMO but it’s not like the best of friendship. I want to make new friends but I’m not in a place where I can mingle and find so many atm. It’s just like I’m stuck. I want more close friends or I want to get closer with the friends I already have.

Friends

Last week I made a friend here but they stopped talking, idk if it's some technical issue with their account or they just find me weird and stopped talking, anyway it triggered my schizophrenia and I am feeling more lonely than before. I don't deserve good friends or any kind of close interaction with anyone.

Mental Illness

Is it me who is bad in friendship cause everytime my friends leave me

I feel very empty. I'm a college student and I have five friends in my class. They always backbite others, also backbite about each other in group I feel very guilty and I feel like i wanna come out of it. But the problem is I wouldn't have anyone else. I have a very diplomatic relationship due to this. Also they are selfish and care only about themselves. I miss my school friends who are in other colleges now. Should I continue the diplomacy till I graduate or do I avoid them. They bully people and make fun of them, though I'm not doing it I feel I'm a part of them.
To be specific it's 3 out of the 5 people. The other two are always hiding secrets making me feel left out, meanwhile the first three have thier own secrets. 

I'm 17 and never been in a relationship. I guess you can say that some because I'm an awkward person, and an introvert. I don't talk to a lot of guys but the ones that I have talked to and believe don't that in can develop into something more or even into a friendship but never does. And I'm left feeling sad and undesirable each time and it really hurts and I often find my eyes feeling with tears. What am I missing that others have? Is there something wrong with me that no one wants to be close to me. I'm generally a cheerful person and I prefer to see the positive side ofor things and that often makes me appear to others as childish and naive. I hide my pain behind a convincing smile, no one's able to tell sometimes I'm glad about it. But sometimes I feel all alone. Adding to the fact that I barely have any friends and my best friend does not go to the same school that I do. We barely see each other and I feel like I'm dragging her down. Not to mention she has tons and thousands of friends to rely on. We're LITERAL opposites and I have a heavy weight of loneliness, sadness and lack of belonging on my shoulders. 

Lonely

Why do friends leave when you open up to them? Do people really expect their friends to be all goofy and fun 24/7? 

3am Thoughts

I feel like i don’t fit in my friend group. Like things would be so much easier without me. I have always been around people who are v nice and i am not trying to saying that these guys are not nice they are v nice people but then it’s v different. Or idk if im just being the sensitive one here. There are so many “you dont fit in” moments in a day and its pretty hurtful at this point idk what to do bc i hav to put up w them for 3 more years. 

I've made friends with two of my sisters friends. we have lots in common. they work but hardly, theirs always on social media. I've reached out to them etc but they hardly reach back out to me. I'm about to give up on them. I hardly have friends other than my online friend of 7 years. 😔. 

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